Room 4 Love

Bonds

2012-02-29T23:20:00.006-08:00

What bonds two people?

trust, affection, shared experiences.

many more things.

Who are you most closely bonded to? Why this person, how did this develop?

Once I read a question that has since echoed in my mind dozens of times since.

It went a little something like this;

"If you arrived in heaven; surrounded by all your favorite things, activities, closest friends, treasured family...but not Christ; would you be satisfied? Would you still miss the presence of Jesus Christ?"

At the time I felt that I might perhaps be satisfied with just peace and beauty.

How could this be? I thought a relationship with Christ is the whole point of the Christian life?

So I prayed, asked God to bond me closer to Himself.

So, God called me into deeper waters;

to walk on water.

dive into waves.

cling to him through a hurricane.

He had to become my supply.

He had to become my one; my only.

He had to become my way, my only way to survive.

I would not trade my relationship with Christ for all the peace and joy in the world.

Good thing now is; He is my peace and joy.

Singing this for you Jesus...and all those searching for You tonight.

the power of one, by nogreaterjoymom

2012-02-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

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Carry Me

2012-02-15T17:34:00.000-08:00

We're waiting on documents still.

Thank you so much for continuing to pray...it means the world and it really makes a difference.

hmmm.

lots of thoughts going on.

most of them are quite lame; nothing powerful or too interesting.

but still, God's doing a work in my heart.

anyone relate?

I love coasting...but that never gets you anywhere in life's journey.

It's the climb that pushes you beyond your ability.

It's the quest that longer than you'd anticipated.

It's the challenge to fight when you're tired.

that's when you are forced, forced to grow.

I wish all my battles were against injustice of others.

I wish my hardest struggles were present because I was doing something great for another person.

But, no. Alas.

they are mostly composed of my own flesh and pride.

When I'm mistreated. misjudged.

When someone takes a swipe. A dig.

I attempt to will myself into being the better person.

But that flesh. That fallen man. That monster.

it must be slain over and over. and over. and over...and over.

I want to be moved by the Father's heart.

Free enough to be unbothered by my own sufferings, for they are not that much compared to so many others.

I feel sometimes like I'm tripping over my own shoelaces. I hate it.

But you know what? If I didn't have to constantly keep returning to the Lord; I would be so much more prideful. If I could handle it all on my own. Willing myself somehow~ I would never understand it was the very Grace of God that truly gets me through. I'd think my own strength to love would be sufficient.

I'd miss my Father's heart.

And in the end, if I missed that....

well, I would have missed it ALL.

So...this song is perfect. Please enjoy :)

And Lord, thank you for ministering to my hurts, however little they truly are in light of such true suffering that exist in the world, including the suffering you yourself endured.

Heal me so that I can bring healing,

Bind my wounds so that I can bind those of others.

Let me not too distracted by these small trials.

Help me claim the destiny we have in Jesus~ that of Isaiah 61

The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,^[a]
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor. They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined citiesthat have been devastated for generations...

May THIS be what my heart pounds, aches and yearns for!!

waiting...

2012-01-29T21:36:00.001-08:00

waiting and waiting....

this process of waiting during the adoption process seems to be only interrupted by brief intensive bursts of high stress, time sensitive mad dash assignments consisting of paperwork, appointments and other related activities.

I'd heard it was a "hurry up and wait" process

Well...now I know why!

In the waiting, I reflect a great deal. About lots of different things.

I am pretty analytical by nature, so I do this a lot anyway.

Tonight I'm reflecting upon the Sunday message I heard today.

About finding victory over sin and vices.

As a follower of Jesus, we have the desire from him to be free from such things.

Why sometimes does it not then translate to our lives completely and consistently?

Why do so many people with good intentions continue to struggle with gossip, rage, fear, pornagraphy, and addictions?

The answer isn't just to "try harder"

why?

because as followers of Jesus; the "old" man and the "new" man are at war.

The "old" man is ever present with carnal desires and full of selfishness.

As long as we are living on this earth, it will always be present within us.

when we simply try harder~ we are simply trying to will the old man to be better.

That process is like trying to dress up a pile of smelly excrement with a necklace and ribbon.

No matter what you do to it~ it will always be disgusting. And trying to fix it is ridiculous.

The solution does not rely on trying to make the old man "better"

It is found only by living the life of the new life within you.

When you become a believer, this new life comes bursting forth within your spirit.

This spirit is GOOD. This spirit is PERFECT.

It is the spirit of the everlasting God.

The Holy Spirit of God.

It seems so absolutely scandalous, doesn't it?

But its true.

When we live by this spirit, we are set free from sin.

When we believe who God says our "new man" is~ we can begin to walk in the victory.

When we feed our new man, starving the old man~ we can begin to walk in the freedom.

When we press into our Father, finding satisfaction only in being filled with His Holy Spirit~ we can begin to walk in the fullness.

So thankful to Jesus that my life doesn't need to be a hopeless pursuit to glamorize my refuse~ instead, because of Jesus' sacrifice and ressurection, I can embrace His very spirit within me; ever ready to live in victory over sin and meet whatever demands each day may bring.

...and may I please remember this first thing when I wake up in the morning! :)

he's growing!!

2012-01-22T20:09:00.001-08:00

and growing...

so good to see new pictures...and he's sitting!!

words cannot express how much we wish he was here, growing up with us.
Just look at his sweetness!
Thank you for praying for him and praying him home. It means the world to us.

CURE

2012-01-21T20:59:00.000-08:00

When I was a little girl I wanted to move to Africa.

I've had many dreams along the way, but each of us can only live one life.

I love my life in the states with my husband and kids; I know this is right where we are supposed to be right now.

Maybe we'll always be here, maybe somewhere else.

One things for sure, some times when I sit in this big American house, my padded life~ I think about the many many impoverished children, mommies and families.

The needs are so overwhelming and it doesn't take much to gain a heavy heart thinking about so much pain and poverty.

Its easy to think "How can I be a part of touching those lives in some way when I'm so far removed?"

Have you heard about CURE?

They have performed 121,000 life changing surgeries for children. CURE's mission is to bring healing to physically disabled children in the developing world and they are doing so in 20 countries. There are different ways to give and one way is through CUREkids as you partner with others to sponsor a child's life changing surgery, you receive email and facebook updates of her progress.

It's it beautiful? How incredible would it be for your book club, bible study, or you and your closest friends to sponsor at least a portion of a child's life changing surgery. I'm pretty sure its one investment we'd never regret.

Also, with tax season upon us~ we wanted to again thank everyone who donated to Isaac's Reece's Rainbow account and remind you to be sure claim it your tax deduction for you sweet sacrifice. We are so very grateful for all your love and support!! We'll update more on our adoption soon~still gathering documents and waiting on a couple more things before we can move to the next step. Your continued prayers mean so very much to us!!

too much pain

2012-01-12T21:20:00.000-08:00

My heart is heavy tonight for a little boy named Tripp...please pray for him and his family.

I have felt haunted by this world tonight, I've read so many devastating stories recently, looked at pictures that rip your heart out.

There is just so.much.suffering.

and much of the time its children and babies.

I know there are wonderful things too.

I get that. and I rejoice in it.

but tonight as I type on this computer, inside the comfort of my huge home, with my healthy children snuggled in their beds, my dear husband and I side by side

I am thinking of the cold, hungry, lonely, fearful, grief stricken, exploited, abandoned that seem to fill the earth.

too much pain.

too much.

It was never meant to be this way. Thank you Jesus, for coming to redeem us back, so that one day things can be set right, in all the world, again. Only love could make a way.

Isaiah 1:17

Learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow

Jason and I have played this song over and over recently, letting is just wash over us morning and night. Tonight is certainly no different.

So thankful for you, Jesus. Help us to do what is right in your sight; not by strength or might;but by your Spirit.

A Paperwork Pregnancy

2012-01-09T20:45:00.000-08:00

Paperwork!!!

So, it is not usually my favorite but right now we're seriously excited to be working through more paperwork because

paperwork=progress!

We'll be moving very soon from the
"Homestudy in Progress" page to the "Compiling Dossier" page on Reece's Rainbow...

can't wait!!!

God, my hero

2012-01-05T17:39:00.001-08:00

I still CANNOT hardly believe we are fully funded...such an amazing miracle! We don't take it for granted for a moment. Thank you to everyone, so much again!!! (tear)

I have lots of things I've been thinking about since we've received news that our home study is

APPROVED!!!

It will now need to be written up for Isaac's country and then we'll continue with more paperwork and appointments to go along with all that is required.

Sometimes I feel anxious. I felt God speak so clearly to me today when I was worrying without even realizing I was doing so. I love it when that happens. I live for those moments!! I love how

He interrupts my thoughts ("For my thoughts are not your thoughts)

He surprises me with His perspective ("Neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord)

Today I was worrying about circumstances completely out of my control. He interrupted my thoughts and surprised me with this:

"I can open doors that no man can close and I can close doors that no man can open"

I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. What could be more comforting? I thought it sounded familiar. Was it a famous saying or something? So I googled it.

It is famous; Its scripture!! Revelations 3:8

And when I did; this was the first thing that popped up.

Those little things are sometimes the big things, God is so very kind. So thankful for my rescuer; my hero, who takes the time and has the care to speak to his children.

The Lord will open doors that no man can close, and close doors that no man can open! (Rev.3:8)

Philippians 4:19

2011-12-30T23:13:00.000-08:00

Laughing...crying.....LAUGHING.....CRYING!!!!!!

HOW???

"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."

We search for the words. But we can. not. find. them.

Utterly, Completely:

Speechless.

I am dumbfounded in the presence of Jehoviah Jireh; "the Lord will provide"

I am dumbfounded in your company, the company of friends who have given so very much.

Words won't come. Just tears and smiles. Pouring out as if without end.

Thank you, each and every one, when my brain begins to function again and I pass on from this feeling of dizzy and lightheaded wonderment~ I will attempt to write more intelligibly but for know all I can say; ALL Glory to be God...

WE ARE FULLY FULLY FUNDED!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU!!

2011-12-30T19:17:00.001-08:00

Thank you so much to whomever donated to Isaac's account today!!! WOW! You have so blessed our family and little Isaac. Happy New Year to you and yours sweet anonymous donors!!

Everyone needs a mommy

2011-12-28T18:45:00.000-08:00

We were in Costco last night,

picking up a few things and sampling goodies along the way.

Jason happened by a gluten free, dairy free, peanut free fruit and nut bar.

Just to be extra safe~ he didn't give any to our 2 year old who has a peanut allergy.

Our four year old takes a taste, barely any at all and hates it.

Moments later he begins complaining of burning, he's sneezing, coughing

and oh my;

face reddening and swelling all over.

He begins to struggle to breathe through his nose and is making an unfamiliar grunting type noise.

I reached that point. I picked him up, stated exactly what we were going to do and pushed past anyone in my way.

that's what mommies do. The world may care a little or a lot for our babies, but a mother will fight get "it" done; whatever her baby needs, regardless.

Everyone needs a mommy.

I had an epipen in my hand as I forced benedryl hoping for it to take affect to avoid the more extreme measures.

Thank God it did.

I have no idea what specific nut he reacted to. We'll have to figure that out. But seconds after I realized the drama had hit its worst and he was going to be fine,

my mind took a long leap

and traveled to other places, other countries

all those babies

all those children

waiting for a family.

"everyone needs a mommy"...I thought to myself

Someone who will reach that point on their behalf. Who will think of their interests first and foremost and past the barriers along the way.

The world may care a little or a lot for a child, but a mothers love will fight to get it done, regardless.

Have I ever told you how we found Isaac? We found him because Danielle, who is adopting Sergey, prayed and prayed and posted Isaac's picture on facebook pleading people to pray for his forever family. She had no idea that family would be ours. Now Isaac and Sergey feel like brothers to me, and much of his ransom still needs to be raised.

Isn't he ADORABLE!!!

The year is almost over and perhaps you've been thinking about a year end donation. Please consider Sergey and the lovely Farley family. Sergey needs his mommy! Please help him find his way to her aching arms. We are desperately praying for Sergey's story to unfold just like little Mia's has, so beautifully. You can make a tax deductible donation to Reece's Rainbow on their blog; the right hand side of the page towards the bottom. And if you cannot give a monetary donation, you can ALWAYS pray...Sergey and the Farley family are fighting tooth and nail on his behalf right now, much of it cannot be discussed on a public blog. But please, donate and pray so that Sergey can be with his mommy soon.

Hold tight, sweet Sergey~ God is covering you with his almighty wing.

Isaiah 49:15

Christmas

2011-12-24T18:52:00.001-08:00

Christmas Morning when we wake up.

I am so happy.

I had a wonderful time with family yesterday.

The kids had a great early Christmas present surprise from my parents and so yesterday we played in the snow and rode the Polar Express.

I have decided to be happy and enjoy these precious moments. I am so glad that I have.

but can I please be honest and share that I am so sad.

I really don't know how to put it in words. We were so dreaming of him home with us for his birthday this month, for Christmas tomorrow.

I am not ungrateful. I am not hopeless. I am trusting God's timing implicitly.

But I am so. very. sad.

Sometimes, God gives you friends to help you bear a burden.

I so read this tonight... and then I just sat and cried.

This Christmas is so sweet and bitter.

Thank you Natalie for being willing to feel and experience this with us. You are such a dear friend, and such a blessing in our lives.

"Shared pain is lessened, shared joy is increased"

http://nataliefalls.com/2011/the-sweetest-christmas-card/

Wonders never cease :)

2011-12-20T21:43:00.000-08:00

To the donor of the beautiful, mysterious donation of 192.55 dollars in Isaac's account tonight,

THANK YOU!!! We just shook our heads is disbelief once again this evening. Thank you for blessing little Isaac and our family so richly this Christmas season.

Please send us your name and address if you'd like a Christmas card and a thank you.

Praying richest blessings on your sweet family tonight and always.

Love,

The Kelleys :)

Another donation!!

2011-12-19T22:23:00.000-08:00

To whoever donated to Isaac's account tonight,

WOW!! Thank you so much!!! Thanks to you and your family, our thermometer is flying higher and higher! God bless you sweet family, whoever you are, if you'd like to receive a thank you and Christmas card, message me your name and address!

God bless!!!

Thank you!!!

2011-12-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

To whomever donated,

I think there have been two in the last day or so...thank you so much for your sacrifice and gift. We are amazed and astounded. We pray God's richest blessings for you and your family~ as you have so generously sought to bless ours. Merry Christmas and send us your address so we can send you a card and thank you!!

Love,

The Kelleys and little Isaac

Another donation!!

2011-12-14T20:29:00.000-08:00

A HUGE "thank you" to the family or families who have donated in the past day!!! Three hundred and fourty five additional dollars have been donated to sweet Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow! Can you believe it?! We are astounded and so grateful. You have helped make this Christmas so very sweet. God bless!!

We hit the top.

2011-12-10T21:16:00.000-08:00

my hands are shaking

there has been a couple more wildly large donations in the past day..

I know we've said it before but seriously.

we are in shock.

the original thermometer; dauntingly tall with a vacancy only fourty THOUSAND dollars could fill

has been filled.

what once looked almost impossible:

has. been. DONE.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

(sorry, I didn't mean to scream in your face, we are just a little crazy over here right now!!!)

If we wrote 'thank you' a thousand times, it wouldn't be enough.

If I wrote 'thank you' fourty thousand times, that would only cover it for each dollar.

but the fact is this:

people have literally saved pennies, nickles, dimes and quarters.

delayed vacations.

postponed other purchases.

held yard sales.

ordered prints for Christmas gifts.

donated supplies.

hosted parties.

donated their birthday money.

made and sold crafts.

took on extra jobs.

researched and pushed for their companies to 'match' gifts.

and more....and more....

YOU gave and gave and gave.

Love and sacrifice like this is *mind blowing*

We have watched in awe as God raised up an army to raise this precious child's ransom.

and you willingly volunteered; friends and strangers, young and old, rich and poor, republican and democrat, Christian and agnostic, and everyone in between. :)

this army of love has lovingly, thoughtfully, humbly sacrificially given.

And because of you, we have hit the top...and then some.

Our current total is 40, 850

Up over the top of the green thermometer and already significantly filling the little extra we need due to in country changes.

I do not believe a miracle like this goes unnoticed on earth and heaven.

To God be the glory!!!

I have never cried more tears in my life than during this process, tonight included. Thank you for giving until it hurt...we know Isaac's life is worth it and we are more than honored to stand beside you in this journey.

please, if you donated through this process in ANY way

send me your address at my email

jaimelkelley@gmail.com

I am not trying to embarrass you

We just have a special Christmas card we would love more than anything to send you.

update on our update :)

2011-12-09T21:49:00.000-08:00

You may remember this post,

we had just hit the officially half way mark in our fundraising (AMAZING!!)

when an announcement came that Isaac's region increased their requirements while we were in mid process applying.

1 (possibly 2) extra trips half way around the world and additional documentation needed...

Our hearts sank initially but we felt our response was to resist fear and discouragement

and keep moving forward.

Another family who recently adopted 2 sweet children from Isaac's region wrote us to confirm that the adoption for one child would indeed be approximately 46,000.

We've been considering how to best share this information concretely on our blog and decided we'd add an additional thermometer representative of the additional funds now required.

We wanted to do this for a couple of reasons; among them are so that if we should miraculously hit the 40,000 and beyond in fundraising, everyone can understand how additional funds will be used. Of course and as always, if there are ANY funds from Isaac's RR account that were not needed for his adoption (not likely, but just saying~ wouldn't that be AMAZING!!) it would be given to help yet another RR child make his way into the arms of his family.

So, this is why you'll be seeing a little (formerly blue now green) thermometer under our original ~ he might look tall but he is MUCH smaller and than that big ol' green one above him ;)

More than anything, we are just SO astounded about where we are in the process with fundraising. Thank you to every man, woman and child who has prayed and donated to help precious Isaac.

Love you all, friends. :)

Moving plans are finalized

2011-12-08T18:19:00.000-08:00

for a beautiful family leaving Phoenix Monday December 26th.
The day after Christmas. Can you imagine?
They plan on arriving in New Orleans Wednesday December 28th.

Their family blog tells their story

how they have been preparing, praying and believing to embark on a new adventure; not for their own vain pursuit but with a dream birthed in love purposed by the Father's heart.

With passion and faith they are moving to New Orleans. To minister to those who need lots of love and care.

Did you know that the effects of Katrina are still being felt strongly in the community?

Remember those images and pictures of devastating loss?

it all seemed so unreal.

Yet that reality was so inescapable for so very many.

we rejoice that many neighborhoods and buildings have since been restored, but brokenness is still remains in the lives of many.

I can only imagine...

So Bryce and Erika are responding to God's call to go and minister God's love and healing.

Good people of New Orleans~ God has been preparing to bring something wonderful to your sweet town!

A family desiring to be a blessing and encouragement.

A woman with wise and sure gifting, whose strength comes from the Lord.

Erika has ministered in such a beautiful way to our Phoenix community, in fact she has been the supervisor of the pregnancy and adoption program of our adoption agency!

During this Christmas season, would you please consider generously blessing this family as they prepare to literally pick up and move their family to be closer to a hurting community that God has broken their hearts to serve? Perhaps someone on your Christmas list would be absolutely delighted to have a donation made in their name~ I know I would!!

If you're interested in learning more, check out the FAQ page on their site

and follow their updates on facebook at https://www.facebook.com/pages/Support-the-Wolfes/123721357720833

Gifts are tax deductible to:

The Gathering

23926 N. Pablo Sun City, AZ 85373

(no need to write Bryce and Erika names on the check~ The Gathering is a registered 501c3 and checks need to be made to them so that the tax write off can be completed correctly)

I believe each of us is "blessed to be a blessing" ~please consider the big and small ways we can bless the Wolfe family as the diligently seek to bless those God has called them to serve.

3 extra special blessings

2011-12-07T21:29:00.001-08:00

1. a wonderful friend is hosting a raffle fundraiser for Isaac this weekend. Will you cover this event in prayer? My sweet friend Kristi is one of the most amazing people I've ever known. Recently I was reflecting upon who I've learned the most from in life, her beautiful face came to mind immediately. Getting back in touch with her last year was soo sweet. Kristi...I've always wanted to be more like you. You are funny, smart, strong and real. Thank you for rooting for Isaac the way you have. It has meant so much to me, dear friend. I can't wait to see all the the fun pictures of this coming weekend from the Santa workshop at Lakeside Lanes!!

2. our darling Caitlin, Isaac's prayer warrior through Reece's Rainbow wrote the most kind and thoughtful letter to Isaac on her blog today and it just gripped Jason and my heart. We could help but share a hug and shed a tear thinking about Caitlin's devotion to God and Isaac's homecoming.

Dear Isaac,

Sometimes I wonder if you are somehow aware that your life is going to change.

Does life feel the same as it always has, or does something feel different?

I know that nobody has told you what is happening in the USA,

that you have a family working hard to bring you home, and that even if they

did tell you, the word family is not in your vocabulary. You haven't gotten

the chance to know what "family" would mean for you. However, I wonder

if you feel loved. Can you feel us loving you?

You turn four this month. Happy Birthday handsome man! You turning four

makes me a little antsy. It makes me want your mommy and daddy to have

a travel date right now! Four is not a wonderful number for children in your

country. But I don't want you to worry, sweetie. You are covered in prayer,

and your gotcha moment is getting closer and closer by the minute.

You have an amazing family coming for you, my dear.I love them so much.

Your mommy is one of the sweetest women of god that I have ever met, and

your daddy, although I have not talked to him directly, sounds like an

amazing and loving man.Your siblings are adorable, smart and waiting for you!

You are a blessed little man. Did you know that? Not only do you have parents

and siblings, but aunts and uncles, and cousins, and grandparents, and TONS

of friends who love you and are working hard to bring you home.

Remember, that just because you have this fantastic family, doesn't mean

I will stop praying for you. I'll always pray for you. I don't think I could stop

if I tried. You will always have me, little man. I knew your face, before I knew

your family's; I loved you for you, not the family you would some day be a part of.

You are my little guy, my handsome man, my sunshine, my Isaac.

I'm your prayer warrior for life, not just for your adoption! I will

watch you grow through pictures, and someday I will meet you face to face.

I'll hear your laugh and give you hugs-I can't wait for that. Someday buddy.

I am anxious to see pictures of you and your mommy and daddy when the

time comes. I will be so at ease when they see you for the first time. And

when you finally get home? I will cry. Of course. I am praying, praying,

praying that everything goes smoothly

I can't wait for you to have a mommy and daddy. YOUR mommy and daddy.

They are amazing Isaac. They inspire me, and I am thankful to know them..

You have already changed lives, even if you are currently unaware of it.
I love you sweet sunshine boy!
-Your Caitlin

PS- I am not totally sure when I started calling you "sunshine" in my own head,

it just seems right. You are now stuck with that nickname, hopefully you don't mind!"

Her blog is just beautiful and I love reading all of her writing. Thank you, Cait; you definitely have the gift of encouragement! we are more blessed by you than words can say. love you so very much.

and lastly,

3. a sweet, sweet poem

also sent to me today by a young woman very near and dear to my heart. M.R.~ you are so precious to me. my heart was knit with yours many years ago and I love you to pieces. We will cherish these words for the rest of our lives.

"Little Isaac, I want you to know you're not alone.
You have a family waiting for you to come home.
They already love you oh so much,
And cannot wait to feel your touch.
Tiny sweetheart, you take your Mommy's breath way.
A** wants to play games with you today.
E** can hardly contain his excitement within.
G** is gonna tickle you until you grin.
Daddy's hugs and kisses will never end.
All our love and prayers to you, we send.
You're one amazing blessing, a miracle, an answered prayer.
An inspiration to us all, a story I can't wait to share.
Little Isaac Kelley, we are ready for you to be here.
Especially your family, who wants to hold you so near."

~M.L.R.

a family who loves to give...

2011-12-06T21:13:00.000-08:00

A couple of months ago, a very dear friend of ours, took on an extra job for a full month.

the reason?

To give all of her earnings to Isaac.

Was it easy for her to do this? With 3 little children, another part time job and a long list of other responsibilities? no. way.

recently she handed us a check with her earnings...

Her parents (their entire family is a known by their love for generosity, I tell you!!!) also donated another love gift to help little Isaac get home.

The total?

$622. 00!!!!

AMAZING provisions born of love and sacrifice!

Thank you so so very much, dear friends.

Thank you!!

2011-12-06T21:08:00.001-08:00

to whomever donated to Isaac's RR account yesterday~ a big, huge THANK YOU!!! May you be blessed in your generous giving, you have blessed us so very much!!

Fear Not

2011-12-06T19:57:00.000-08:00

I know these words were written in 1857.

I know the old English is not what I am accustomed to reading.

but I am an absolute mess right now.

God was so kind to me

to help me find these words somehow tonight.

the 3 r's

2011-12-04T21:12:00.000-08:00

This time of year is wonderful; the lights, music, delicious food!

it seems magical all around

but...it can hit you hard if you are facing grief, loss or difficulty.

because of this, it's statistically the hardest time of year for many people.

I speak for myself in saying:

As a Christian, these feelings can be guilt inducing. Aren't we supposed to be "happy"?

Truth is, being a Christian doesn't make everything perfect in our lives.

it doesn't guarantee that anything will fall into place externally, really...

it does mean that when life doesn't go as planned or dreamed,

I have the permission and invitation to press more desperately into Christ. And as I do, I discover union life with Him; and that I'm are no longer interested and able to just have Him on the side.

I want to share a song with you.

A song about renewal, redemption and rebirth

As you listen, I invite you to soak it in.

revel and identify with it.

when the chorus pounds...will you imagine Jesus and his strong hammer of love pounding away, breaking the chain of pain around your heart?

when the music ascends... will you anticipate His strong arms lifting you out of the pit?

as the instruments swell and differentiate...come into agreement that HOPE will come bursting forth from your life and heart like the most beautiful flower you've ever seen bursting from the dirt.

JESUS...wonderful, powerful, incredible JESUS

does that.

circumstances may not change

people may not change

and problems may not disappear

But there is real joy

freedom

hope

and a good future

because those things are found in a person;

Christ.

If your heart aches this season, press into Him...and never. ever. let go.

listen here. He makes beautiful things...

giving thanks

2011-11-28T21:39:00.001-08:00

giving thanks tonight for the financial blessing we have known in this adoption process. Thank you so, so, so very much to whomever has just donated to little Isaac's account. When I checked our RR account today I felt that lump in my throat and the comforting hand of our Father saying~ I am providing for this little boy. Amidst the wait, the trials and all "odds"~ the Father is providing. We are so grateful.

The other night I felt dread like a blanket creeping in to cover me before I fell asleep.
December is almost here.

The month Isaac turns 4.

Sometime between the ages of 4 and 5 children in his country are transferred to institutions.

I cannot tell you how it feels inside.

But God brought back this

And I am so thankful for this picture. so very thankful. you can read a little more about it here.

For the encouragement it brings to think of it hanging up in homes around the country. For the friends, family, children and strangers who have given in behalf of this precious little boy.

With tears I can say, even though we haven't been able to hold you yet

God has you in his hand, dear one.

60 years I'm so thankful for

2011-11-19T19:42:00.000-08:00

i am reminded of what a blessed life I live because of a man who turned 60 today.

it was such a great moment to watch his surprised face when he walked into my kitchen.

he is a man who would never boast about his greatness

a man who would be the first to admit his flaws

yet he is the man who would stop anything in the world to talk if I needed him

who would pray with me anytime, anyplace and he has done so since i was a child

a man who has given his time money and belongings to people with only a moments notice

who has handwritten scripture and prophetic encouragement to his children; blessing them as they struggle to find their way and step into God's fullness for their lives.

humble enough to seek out other's hearts and feelings

strong enough to be correct by those younger than him

wise enough to see to the heart of a matter

kind enough to have seek forgiveness

gentle enough to forgive

Dad, you are an "overcomer" and as far back as I can remember you have taught me to "pursue the life of an overcomer"~ and I will hold tight to it. You have never pretended to be perfect. But you have born fruit that has perfectly demonstrated repentance, perseverance, authenticity and humility. thank you for always being so approachable...I've benefited so much from knowing I could talk to you about anything. Your life has drawn me towards Christ. Thank you for leading me to Him with your life~I love you so much and cherish our friendship.

16. charming children's books

2011-11-16T20:06:00.000-08:00

I love reading with my kids.

it just feels so right, doesn't it?

Today we read another book by Robert McCloskey; Blueberries for Sal. I think this author just may be one of my new favorites.

Yesterday we read Time of Wonder and before that, One Morning in Maine.

I love the way he captures sweet moments with little ones and the charming little details in the pictures. I relate so much with the stories.

For example, do you see the little girl in the high chair?

She is doing exactly as Nana would. See the mom slightly bothered by her child in the high chair? but notice the details of her expression;

it's apparent that she cannot help but smile and secretly love how deliciously adorable her child is even when she's making a mess at the table.I sooo relate!
The books are full of details like this that I absolutely adore. I'm thankful today for sweet books like this that I love to read with my babies.

15. a word

2011-11-15T19:40:00.000-08:00

Today I spoke with dear friend I've had since childhood. I wrote about her on here once before.

She is near and dear to my heart, and she just like all my other dear friends, has done much more than her fair share of listening and praying with me recently (sooo thankful for my girlfriends!!!) We don't get to talk as often as I would like but when we do we always pick right back up where we left off like no time has passed at all. After listening, she shared with me from the inspiration in her heart.

it wasn't advice, it wasn't a pat on the back, it was a WORD

do you know what I'm talking about?

its like when someone shares something profound...but it goes even beyond that.

it brings perspective and comfort...but it goes beyond that.

its more like their words hand you a key

that serve to unlock a door you feel like you've been stuck behind

bringing increased freedom, courage, and joy.

this happens when its not just the person speaking on their own accord. When someone speaks God's words to us, they move with power of God's spirit and are able to be the vessel. How beautiful, Ephesians 5:18"... be filled with the Spirit, speaking to another with psalms, hymns and songs from the Spirit..."

Today, I'm so thankful to have been blessed to receive a word from my Lord through my beloved friend.

(and tomorrow; I hope and pray the Lord uses me to bring His words to others too.)

Image from http://www.key-title.com/images/gold-key.jpg

little mommy

2011-11-14T20:39:00.000-08:00

My little mommy. She is so sweet. so nurturing. so spiritual, passionate and free.
oh how I love her.

We were discussing a Christmas list idea for this year inspired by a good friend.
This is how you make your list: something you want, something you need, something to wear, something to read.

Little Mommy:" I'm having a hard time thinking of what I need"
Me: "that's because we are so blessed we hardly know need"
Little Mommy: "Mommy, I know of something I need!!....Isaac"

She teaches me so much.

Daddy: "what was your favorite part of today?"
Little Mommy: "playing Barbies with mommy"

I am so thankful for my sweet girl, she is such an inspiration and joy.

11 & 12

2011-11-12T19:03:00.001-08:00

Yesterday and today had 2 glorious things in common:

a. yard sales

b. smores.

a few fun and functional cheap thrills and a satisfied sweet tooth.

I am a thankful for both :)

images from http://cutest-date-ever.com/ and http://www.myhomeideas.com

10. two more bowls of pasta

2011-11-10T17:14:00.000-08:00

2 more brightly colored bowls of pasta

2 more mismatched cups of water

recaps of the day

giggles, laughter and tears at the table

I am so thankful for my niece and nephew

how they enrich our lives and all they mean to us and our children

so thankful they live close enough to come over and play

and eat at our table tonight

Love them so!!

Donations of Love

2011-11-09T15:20:00.001-08:00

Someone and/or some people have been donating....

Oh my goodness, when this happens I always feel faint! LOL

God has once again moved on behalf of Isaac in miraculous ways this week.

If you have recently donated and you're reading this (and I really hope you're reading this)

THANK YOU!!!

Our journey of faith and obedience has been so abundantly blessed by YOU as you respond to the love and compassion God has placed in your heart of behalf of Isaac.

It is so humbling that God has invited us on such an incredible journey and such an honor to be taking the journey with you!!

God bless!!!

9. the hard path

2011-11-09T14:56:00.000-08:00

I am thankful for the hard path

we're called to walk it at times and lets be honest, it ain't easy

It feels like the wilderness or the valley of the shadow of death

sometimes it feels like it will never end and hopelessness can settle in

Thankfully we live by faith not feeling.

by faith we can keep hoping, believing and moving.

remembering God's promises and our previous experiences with God, knowing He uses these paths for His great and glorious purposes;

By faith we choose to believe the current hard path we may be walking is JUST LIKE all those experiences leading up to this one; ripe with redemption and hope through Christ's power.

Does it feel that way while your walking the desolate road? Nope. not at all.

That's where the faith comes in.

Choosing to believe He is always with us clinging to the truth that one day it will look less like the picture above and more like this:

Like the poem goes, we will see one day that during the hardest of times, He was indeed carrying us. We were never alone, never abandoned.

Walking with Jesus on the hard path requires faith. James 1:3-4 Says "because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

for that amazing faith opportunity, I give thanks for the hard path.

Images found at meggangould.net and andriathompson.wordpress.com

8. Forever Reign

2011-11-08T18:09:00.000-08:00

Could this be the best song ever written?

hmm...perhaps

the music is good. but its the words

those words!

I am so very thankful for it, it so calls me back to the truth of the Christian life, the secret of the Christian life;

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. Galatians 2:20

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m84URv4Sgxc

7. The prophetic voice

2011-11-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

I believe God speaks prophetically through all of His children.

He calls us to repentance and rebirth

He calls us to love what He loves through the empowerment of His very Holy Spirit

and He uses His beloved children to share the message.

I am thankful for those who courageously speak a message from the heart of God as He leads.

This one is on the forefront of my mind today and I am so thankful for it.

Thank you for sharing this message Adeye and having the courage to let God speak prophetically through you.

6. Homeschooling

2011-11-06T18:02:00.001-08:00

I love that for the past couple of years I've had the honor and privilege of homeschooling

I won't say that it is perfect or that we will always choose to do our schooling at home but for this season of our lives, it has been such a good fit for our family

helping to bring us closer, equipping us to encourage each other in our strengths, and enjoying how we can focus our curriculum and daily agenda

not to mention the blessed enrichment provided by Joe Joe

and Nana ;)

I know it isn't for everyone and certainly not in every season of life (Lord knows I never would have thought it was for me! lol) but tonight I'm giving thanks opportunity I've enjoyed in being able teach these precious ones at home.

5. Today, a brunch to remember...

2011-11-05T21:46:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure there was a better way to spend a lovely, brisk morning.

Delicious food, wonderful friends, lovely decor~ all brought together for one beautiful purpose

Because two beautiful young women dreamed, planned and persevered to bring so many of us together

to enjoy one another's company~just time to sit, laugh a little and sip some fresh coffee

knowing we each have a chance to win one or two of the FABULOUS gift baskets that were donated...(WOW)

Then all of these precious women, lent me their ear and their hearts while I recounted our story of how God brought Isaac into in our lives, how He has ignited our hearts with love for him and how He is cutting a path before us admist the sometimes not so easy road of adoption.

And then these women together prayed for precious Isaac.

prayed for our family and poured our their hearts in such generosity...never in my life would I have expected an additional $719 dollars for Isaac's adoption. Wow...stunned and in awe.

Oh how God loves His Isaac...how he brought so many together today who gave sacrificially with the heart of our Father to bring him home to our family.

Extravagant love. We are so blessed to be a part of this miracle. Thank you so much to each and every person who helped bring this incredible morning together. It would have not happened without you and all you baked, borrowed, gave and prayed. We are so humbled and are so grateful.

Especially, Becky. Thank you for dreaming big with the vision God placed in your heart.

Thank you for today. Thank you for helping us to bless Isaac. We are so very, very thankful. xo

4. Nana

2011-11-04T19:00:00.000-07:00

This post is really hard to write right at the moment.
The inspiration and the interruption are one in the same...

sweet, sweet, girl. You are such a marvel.

We just celebrated your 2nd birthday a few days ago. Where has the time gone? It seems just yesterday you were born here at home into our arms.

Look at Daddy's smile and I was beside myself with amazement and wonder from the moment I laid my eyes on you

Your name means "easy to love", and I couldn't stop telling you just how much I loved you from the very start.

And we still all tell you...all day long...just how loved you truly are....

We are so thankful and grateful for you, Darling. You are so easy to love.

3.Joe Joe

2011-11-03T19:12:00.000-07:00

On August 26 God brought a little guy into our lives. He needed a family and a place to call home and God knew we needed him..

His name is Joe Joe (as in the TJ's version of the oreo cookie...only 100x better)

We know God brought him into our lives as a comfort and encouragement. Jason's said so many times "its like he's always been here". He has been our little therapy dog and he fits our family like a glove. We love you little Joe Joe and we are so very thankful for you! xo

Two things

2011-11-02T20:44:00.000-07:00

I am following the lead of a dear friend, Amy. My goal: A thankful post every day of November.

WHOOPS that means I'm 2 days behind already so better get crackin!

Here's my catch up:

1. Friendship

2. Coffee

Seriously.....SERIOUSLY.

So very, very grateful.

I am so very blessed.

So thankful for you!

2011-10-27T19:44:00.000-07:00

Thank you to whoever donated tonight to Isaac's account...what a blessing you are~ thank you for your sacrifice for little Isaac!!! You gift means so very much to our family :)

We are still waiting on the Arizona courts, we can't move forward in the process until they approve our home study...waiting is not the most fun I've ever had I'll admit ;) But we know there are many, many families in AZ in the same boat, there's a huge wait, a huge pile of home studies just sitting one someone's desk...we all are waiting hoping every day is the day we get the call saying "You're Approved!!!"

But still, there is purpose in it and we believe that wholeheartedly.

November is national adoption month and we've heard through the grapevine that a bunch of homestudies will be approved...Lord, please let ours be in that bunch!! :)

Your prayer support means more to our family than words can express. Thank you for praying and for standing with us, I don't know how we could have ever made it this far without you. We are giving thanks and praying for your families tonight~ Lord bless you, dear friends!! And maybe, just maybe~ tomorrow will be the day :)

little trip to the store and more..

2011-10-17T19:32:00.000-07:00

I really intended to make a trip to Costco tonight.

I got about 2 miles down the road and started daydreaming about extreme couponing...and felt like I could use a quick cat nap behind the wheel,

so I decided it might be a really good idea just to stop at Frys instead!

I picked up the essentials and picked the shortest line...

or so I thought.

The couple ahead of me had already bagged all their groceries (2 carts full) but what I didn't see at first glance was the skyscraper-high pile of coupons they stacked within reach of the cashier.

extreme couponing...how odd, I thought to myself. I was just thinking about this.

It made the line take like what seemed to be forever, but I didn't mind because

I saw a sweet little blondie standing with them.

She's about 8

waiting oh so sweetly and patiently

leaning over every few moments to snuggle with her mama

a darling little girl with Down syndrome who just took my breath away.

We catch each other's attention after a few moments and I wave and she waves.

I smile..and she smiles.

and I make a silly face..and she makes a silly face

and then she snuggled right back up to her mama..safe and secure. happy and oh so loved.

My eyes burned with tears as I thought about so many other mamas especially in the eastern European block.

for reasons of great and terrible complication, abandon their dear ones when they come to find they have Down syndrome.

I don't judge them..or I try not to.

But it breaks my heart.

I'm so heartbroken so many mamas have missed out, so many children missed out on life with their families.

Sent to orphanages, most of them never to be adopted.

Instead they experience life and death in adult mental institutions.

Its almost unbearable to think about.

October is Down syndrome awareness month, did you know that? I didn't know that until this year.

My lovely friend Natalie has been sharing from the heart, answering some of the questions her readers might have about Down syndrome and her precious son. I've so enjoyed learning from you, especially this month, my friend.

To all the babies, children and adults with Down syndrome...I am so thankful for you. Thankful for all you have to teach us and show us. May this month be a wonderful celebration in honor of you and how you bless and enrich our families, communities, nation and world.

And I pray especially for all of the children who have Down syndrome who have no mommy, no daddy tonight. I am so sorry this world has been so cruel to misunderstand you and push you aside. You are made in the image of Creator, Almighty God and may Jesus make his presence known to you tonight. xoxo

God places the lonely in families...

2011-10-12T16:07:00.001-07:00

I just checked the blog to see his sweet little face...I have a framed picture on the counter but still, it's something I do throughout the day.

My heart literally jumped in my chest when I saw his Reece's Rainbow account number!!

WHAT?!

Some angel...in the middle of their day...just donated $850 dollars to bless little Isaac in his journey. Not just a journey over miles and oceans, but his journey from 'orphan' to 'son'.

It means more to us than we can express. We are so blessed to be a part of the miraculous story God is writing and so blessed to join hands together with you in the journey.

Psalms 68:5-6 says "Father to the fatherless, defender of widows-this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families."

Thank you,

thank you,

so very much.

for helping bring Isaac home to our family.

May you know God's richest blessings as you have poured out such kindness and generosity.

Retirement check :)

2011-10-11T19:46:00.000-07:00

Although I LOVED my job as a fourth grade teacher, I didn't work long before we started our family and decided I'd stay at home full time with the sweet babes. It was a hard decision in some ways at the time but we knew it was ultimately what we had always both wanted.

Fast forward 7 years

to the recent moment when Jason came home from work and mentioned receiving some information in reference to my savings through the AZ state retirement system. SWEET! There was about $750 just hiding out in there...waiting to be discovered! Cashing it out meant the the state and the feds took a little slice but still, as of today $561 dollars was deposited into Isaac's account!!

Wonders never cease! We are so grateful for God's perfect timing. :)

So very grateful!!

2011-10-07T15:44:00.001-07:00

Thank you so much to whoever has donated to Isaac's account late last night and again this afternoon!!! May God bless you and your family for your great compassion and generosity!!!

And thank you SO much, Sweet Natalie for fund raising this whole month for Sergey and Davis and Isaac. Please visit Natalie's blog to see all the wonderful gifts she is offering to those who donate to these sweet boy's accounts this month. As adoptive mamas, we are also being given the opportunity to share on Natalie's blog this month. Amy's story is here. Mine is here and Danielle's is here. Thank you, Natalie for helping us get these 3 precious boys into our arms soon!! xoxo

I have this friend....

2011-10-06T14:36:00.000-07:00

Beautiful, Thoughtful, and Humble.

She gives from the heart, and when she does it she digs down deep. With creativity, inspiration, sacrifice and such JOY!

I'd love to shout out all she and her family have done for Isaac from a mountain top, but I fear it might embarrass her, so I'll resist.

I'll honor her anonymity and call her "Jo"

Well, Jo wrote me a little note this morning. She drew my attention to Isaac's Reece's Rainbow Account.

Well...I've been more than a little lightheaded ever since!!!

...She was so excited....just like she always is

LORD, PLEASE let us give like this one day to bless another family as we have been blessed! Thank you our beloved friends. I wish we had words that could express the deep emotion and gratitude that we hold in our hearts today and every day. Jo, thank you for everything you, your husband and family have done for Isaac; today and every day in our journey. Always they will be cherished in our hearts.

Our grand total is now

$31, 865

We are blessed to be apart of such an astounding miracle!

ONLY GOD could write a story like this for Precious Little Isaac!!!!

We are so so very thankful!!

Sisterly Love

2011-10-04T20:58:00.001-07:00

I am so blessed for I have 4 beautiful sisters~ One by birth and three by marriage.

I learn so much from each of them. They are phenomenal women that I am blessed to call family. They have all been such a huge support to me throughout the years. Each one of them has forgiven me of my shortcomings and mistakes along the way. They are beautiful, talented, funny and I love them so very much.

3 of them live here in town and I wanted to share a little post about how they've been blessing sweet Isaac in the past number of weeks. Lizabeth, my tummy sister, is 14 months younger than me. I always felt like she and I were more like twins. I am so thankful my parents had us both so close in age, having a sister to share everything with was the best! She has a HUGE heart and is such a giver. She has donated to Isaac (again) last week, bless her heart. FizzyLizzy~ I can't imagine my life or making this journey without you babe!!!

Jeaniebear and I became sisters when we married brothers. She and Aaron are about to have their second wee little one and amist all she has going on in her life~ she has spent the last few months making and selling necklaces and bracelets for sweet Isaac. Thank you so much, Jeanie everything you have done for Isaac means so much to us!!!

Becks and I became sisters when I married Jason because she is his little sister. Along with everything else she has done, Becky has been working with her bff to put together a beautiful brunch fund raiser for next month. They printed the invitations and will begin mailing them tomorrow. EEEK!!!

Because of their love and sacrifice, we're able to up the thermometer another $123 tonight...and continue to pray for the November fund raiser that will be here before we know it!

I love my sweet sissies. Our lives are so much sweeter because of you. XOXO

Mom's Night In

2011-10-02T12:35:00.000-07:00

Last night was one of the most sentimental nights of my life.
My dearest Megan and her lovely, kind, and close friend Megan joined their creative minds and beautiful hearts to put together a experience like none other. "The Megans" are truly two women that simply make this world a more wonderful place for everyone~ They are such an incredible team!
Everything they do is just always over the top wonderful.
Whenever I get to be a part of something Megan does, I can never quite prepare myself for all the details and finishing touches. I get giddy before a birthday party or celebration she puts together because I'm always amazed by what she comes up with next.
Last night they hosted a "Mom's Night In" for Isaac. The display was the most enchanting collection of decoration and desserts I've ever seen. They artfully decorated craft tables with flowers and bit of creative inspiration. Beautiful lanterns hung from the ceiling and luminaries lit the entrance. It was so gorgeous. GORGEOUS!!!
Beautiful and encouraging music was playing as the women arrived. We sipped cucumber water and fresh lemonade from mason jars and designer straws and indulged in hand dipped marshmallow treats, individual dessert jars tied up with bows and so much more. The girls raffled incredible prizes such as one hour professional family photography sessions, a fashionable hand stitched clutch, and custom jewelry. We had a wonderful time just talking and laughing while we busied ourselves completing a number of fun and satisfying crafts for us to take home and enjoy. A day at the spa fails in comparison ~ it was bliss!!
Seriously one of THE BEST NIGHTS OF LIFE!!
The women were so kind and supportive and altogether they donated $325 towards Isaac's account. Yes...you did read that number right!!! We. were. shocked!!!
To both Megans~ you are an incredible ministry team. Thank you for blessing each and every person there with your creativity, time and generous spirits. Thank you for doing all of this for the sake of Isaac, what a beautiful act of love. Jason keeps asking me what I'm smiling about...every time I think back to last night~ I just can't help but smile and wipe a tear. Thank you for everything. Just wish I could go back and experience it all over again. Thank you to each woman who came to support our family and sweet Isaac. Thank you, to both Megans for hosting such a beautiful evening we will always cherish. Love you girls so much!!!!

Lora and "Baby #8"

2011-09-25T17:00:00.000-07:00

Our parents were friends, we lived just streets away, went to church together. Our bond was forged early in children and will always be there. And so, Lora and I are more like sisters, really. We understand our families, old church and town like no one else. Our dreams, our fears, our failures and our greatest achievements.
I was probably a freshman in High School when we saw a documentary one evening. A camera crew gained access to an orphanage. It aired with the news and we watched through the window of a tv screen. We leaned in to observe the lives of many, many children who had been hidden away only to suffer. After that, Lora and I were never the same.

We had witnessed children in their cribs, in rows.
neglected and atrophyed.
Beautiful babies, made in God's image, just wasting away.
"How do people go film such atrocities and and then just. leave. Turn around and walk away? How is it we are content to live in such a world where these horrors take place?"
We asked ourselves these questions over and over, unable to find an answer that made any sense at all in our minds.
One little cherub stood out, they filmed her at the end...banging her head over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over...
If my sentence was tough the read, believe me: it was agonizing to watch.
She was "Baby #8", they said

Oh, how many tears did we cry?
How many tears had "Baby #8" cried??? And then stopped..and instead begun to bang her head. Seeming never to cease.

We wished, wanted and prayed to help.
Well, the years passed for Lora and I. We don't live anywhere near each other anymore. I got married, majored in elementary education and had 3 kids...she has nannied and worked with many children in particular developing and nurturing a gift for working with children with special needs, Down syndrome in particular. In the past year and a half Lora married a wonderful man and they had a beautiful daughter together. I haven't been able to meet their darling Olive yet...I cannot wait for that day.
Some people live with very little. We might think we have little, but some people live on very very little. I have really no idea what they have done without to give the 380.93 she mailed me last week. I sat at the mailbox and just cried as I read her note that read
"We wanted to help you bring your son home...can you believe this is actually happening? It's a dream come true..."

I still wonder about "Baby #8" ...I wonder about her life and if she's already safe in the arms of Jesus or still enduring a life of suffering. Thinking about her makes me sad but I'm glad that Lora and I can be a part of bringing a sweet Isaac home~ a dream that was planted in our hearts so many years ago when our hearts were broken for sweet "Baby #8" These orphans are precious in His sight.

Donations!!

2011-09-25T16:38:00.001-07:00

Where to begin..with that good news or with the good news? ;)
Ok...
Becky (Jason's sis) and her husband Jesse have shared Isaac's story with their Sunday school class. They pray for him, ask for updates and have been filling a change jar (Aww) One of the couples had donated last month..it still takes my breath away. (this is a young married class...their sacrifice was precious) another couple who just had a their first sweet child gave a extremely thoughtful and generous
$20 Woohoo!!
Friends have continued to bring their change jars in...thank you to EACH ONE OF YOU we haven't counted all the change but we're up to another
$72 Incredible!!
And a very dear friend, Sabrina...she celebrated her birthday so sacrificially this year. She threw a little party herself, made dinner and asked her friends to donate what they could for little Isaac. I am wiping tears as I type..such love. She amazes me. They raised
$85 more!!! AHHH!!

THANK YOU!!! It is without further ado that I go to hit "post" and officially up the meter ONE HUNDRED SEVENTY SEVEN dollars more! Thank you friends!! God multiplies what you give every. single. time!!

(And I'm not even done sharing all the good news yet!!)

1,000 dollars closer!!

2011-09-24T14:30:00.000-07:00

Today my amazing husband and 2 of his terrific friends helped us deliver an elliptical and refrigerator to a couple who happens to be pretty near and dear to our hearts. :) The refrigerator was donated to Isaac's cause by a very generous couple who were inspired to give because of our incredibly supportive friend and neighbor, Amanda. Thank you so much Amanda...I can't wait to let your family know their genersity has brought in $200 to help bring Isaac home!!!! The sale of the fridge and elipitical brings us 1,000 closer and our grand total to 27,496!! More updates to come before the end of the day!

WHEW!!!

2011-09-23T14:42:00.000-07:00

Well sorry to everyone that we have been a little MIA lately! It has been one of the craziest seasons for us~ to be clear, our voice mail box is full, many emails are still unanswered and I don't even personally KNOW about all the changes on FB that everyone is raging about. I am SO far behind blogging about a number of wonderful things, and I also have some updates for our fundraising thermometer, but I don't want to add the numbers in before I can share the stories behind the donations.
For what seems like forever now, we have been overwhelmed with places to go, things needing to be done, people to follow up with, helping a ministry at church, and doctors appointments. Thank you for understanding!! As far as doc appoints, our family's holding up pretty well with a collective total of with 5 newly filled cavities and 1 benign biopsy result. YAY!!! Life these days is a delicate balance of home schooling a 6 year old with a nearly 2 year old and a deliciously lively 4 year old who is no longer napping. The adoption process, preparation and fundraising is a wonderful blessing but can be hard to balance with homeschooling and every day living. Also...this has been a time of testing. We have spent more hours praying and reading scripture than ever before in our lives. God's strength has been the strength we've needed. Yesterday I watched a little video on Jesus's life with Gracie. It was so powerful. There is just no one like Him~ I'm so thankful He is with us each step. Everything we go though, He is there.
We have been touched and overwhelmed with your love, during this season friends. We know some of you have been worried about how we've been doing, thank you for the many who have called and stopped by to check up on us especially the past number of weeks. Your love has strengthened us and prayers have helped us through. We are moving forward in Jesus' strength! AMEN!! I will be updating the blog soon with a number of wonderful stories.

Thank you's and Updates :)

2011-09-14T18:06:00.000-07:00

Any cause, goal or pursuit worthy of our effort has the potential to dynamically affect our relationships. That is certainly the case with Isaac's adoption. Through the process so far, our hearts has grown tightly knit with those who have supported us through prayer, encouragement and lending a listening ear. Through this experience we have grown even closer to friends who we have been close with for years. They have been there for us and with us come rain or shine. What would we have done without you? Shudder to think!
We've also grown to know and appreciate our friendships that were just beginning to grow as we made the decision to adopt Isaac, it has been such a wonderful way to connect and get to know each other on a deeper level. We have cherished these newly bonded relationships so much!!
And then there is the wonderful celebration of the relationships that we've been blessed to form simply because we chose to adopt...or so it seems. There's no way to measure the encouragement you have been
So many friends have carried our burden along side us and been our strength. One couple from our church has really had a strong presence in our lives since our decision. Each week I saw them at church, God worked through them to bring tremendous encouragement! Sometimes it was a smile, a word, a conversation or a time of prayer. Its hard to explain just how a person's presence can be such a blessing. But I believe because they had been praying for us, God's Spirit moved through them to really reach out and encourage us in many more ways than they ever even realized!
When we received the list of names of those who had donated to Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow...guess who's names we saw, TWICE! I was mess~ they had already done so much for our family and for Isaac...and then a financial gift too...wow. I coudn't wait to talk to them the next Sunday and they told me that the company the husband works for has a matching program! If an employee from this company donates to a 501c3 charity that meets their criteria, they will match the donation! WOW!! He works for a large major corporation and Reece's Rainbow was already on their list of approved organizations. They didn't even have to submit it to "wait and see" if they would make the approval. Imagine that!! This lovely couple really encouraged me to spread the word. So here goes :)
If you have been wanting to make a donation to Isaac through Reece's Rainbow, please consider checking with the company that employs you to see if they have a matching program; that would mean your gift could be DOUBLED by just the click of a button!

Our home study was completed a number of weeks ago now but is still in process of approval with the AZ courts...they are known for being slower than other states :( Red tape! Wish we could force the process to move more quickly but we trust God's sovereignty. Our wonderful social worker calls every Friday to check on its status, how incredible is she!! Once it is approved we can move forward with compiling our Dossier for Isaac's country. We are coming, Sweet Isaac!!! I'm so sorry you have had to wait so long for your Mommy...for your family.
Thank you dear friends. We sure love you~ old and new~ we hope we can bless you to the measure that you have surely blessed us in this season of our lives.

10 sweet dollars...every penny he had

2011-09-05T18:08:00.001-07:00

Sunday, a friend brought me an change jar for Isaac that her children had filled.
She shared with me the story behind the money in the jar.
She had explained Isaac's desperate situation to her young son Jake, who is about the same age as our Grace. Once he understood Isaac's need, he went immediately for his piggy bank.
And he offered the whole bank,
everything he had.
just turned it over and trying dumping every single cent in the small opening of the jar.
We stood there as she explained each detail and we were both just crying.
for so many different reasons.
Partly because he moved to give without hesitation.
Partly because he moved to give everything he had to give.

This little boy, had just over 10 dollars in his piggy bank.
And he gave it all. Every last penny. Lord, I am so humbled to be a part of this beautiful story you are writing through Isaac. Sometimes its so touching it literally makes our hearts ache.
When I think of Jake's gift, I think of widow's two mites.
I know there is a special blessing on his love offering for Isaac...it's so touching to think of how many children have helped to fill those jars...I've just cried and cried will still cry more just thinking about it.

Thank you sweet Jake~ I know I will shed a tear as I adjust our green thermometer up ten more dollars because of all you gave. Thank you to each person, including so many sweet children, who have given what they can. I know God is multiplying each gift~ we are so thankful for each of them.

Thank you!!!!

2011-09-02T16:58:00.000-07:00

A BIG thank you to whoever just donated!!! You have NO idea how encouraging your donation is~ God bless you!! Please be sure to email me at jaimelkelley@gmail.com so we can send you a book!! :)

Little Jewel Bird

2011-08-31T22:36:00.000-07:00

My favorite part of a homeschooling day is when Grace and I snuggle together on the couch and read.
We have some scheduled reads but I also have pile of books from a couple of recommended reading lists that I pull from each day~ in no certain order, just whatever looks interesting.
Yesterday I happened to pull "Little Jewel Bird" from the shelf.
It's a sweet short read with enchanting little pictures and a story that Grace and I just relished from the start.
Chapter One's Title The Tiny Bird had me at "hello" so to speak.
The first chapter begins
"Mother, Mother, look! See what we found. Two pairs of feet came flying into the house. Two pairs of bright brown eyes sparkled with excitement. Mother looked. There in Leon's hand was a wee little bird."

The picture is reminiscent of another, is it not?? You may recall our baby bird theme that has continued throughout our adoption, including the work of art divinely inspired by Johanna, you can see it again here. Needless to say, first few lines in, our hearts were melted...we enjoyed each picture and page as the children in the story took pity on the bird, caring for it and sharing it with a sick friend while the tiny life needed their help. It's a darling little story that captivated Grace until the end. Finally one day the mommy bird comes for the little baby and the two are reunited. On the last page the mother encourages her children who were sad to see the baby bird go~ "The Bible says that God sees when a little bird falls to the ground," Mother spoke softly. "God saw little jewel when she fell and you helped you children to find her so you could take care of her while she needed help..."
God used this little book to inspire me to think about the beautiful way God uses us, his children to bless and minister to others in their time of need~ just like the children did in the little story book. Each person who has shared Isaac's story, prayed for him, or donated to account has been like the little children in this sweet story who took care of the baby bird they came upon. Just like the children in the book helped their little jewel bird during her time of need; you, our sweet donors, are helping Isaac during this time of need in his young life ~ helping our family make our way to him to rescue him and bring him home. If you are able to give $30 this month, we'd love to send you a copy of this enchanting book for your whole family to enjoy as a thank you.

In the front of the book, there's a "This book belongs to" space. We'd be honored to hand write your name inside with a special thank you message from our family. We'll be mailing these books to each one who donates $30 or more during the month of September. Please email me at jaimelkelley@gmail.com with your name and address so that we can send you this special gift from our hearts, to yours.

Tears of Joy

2011-08-31T09:17:00.001-07:00

My eyes are burning from tears of joy and gratitude. To the person and family that just donated
*one thousand two hundred fifty dollars*
We are so thankful for this miracle for our family and for Isaac. Your donation has blown us away!! We cannot wait to hold Isaac in our arms and tell him about you, and all the incredible people who loved him so much before they even met him. When Jason and I saw the donation this morning~ we completely astounded!!!God is writing such a truly miraculous story in his life~this precious little guy has so much ahead of him, thank you sweet donors for your gift of love. We pray blessings upon blessings for you and your family.

If we weren't experiencing it~ I wouldn't think it possible!!!

2011-08-28T17:03:00.000-07:00

So far in the adoption journey, we've had some spectacular days.
We've had some tough days,too.
When all is said and done, I wouldn't trade them for the world!
Yesterday we had seriously one of THE best days together.
These ups and downs are characteristic of the adoption journey~we've been reassured of this by the many many who have gone before us. We are taking one step at a time, holding fast to our Guide. Knowing his divine ability to direct and redirect. We would be nowhere without His direction.
We're learning to let go and pull closer together as a family; as a team.
Through this journey, there are somethings that have been constant.
One of those things has been made up of LOTS of little and big things~ all falling under one proverbial umbrella.
In the process we have come to experience and recognize a constant outpouring of
BLESSING
It takes so many forms. Words of knowledge, words of wisdom, precious times of prayer, scripture reading, family memories, and touching and powerful confirmation. Sometimes its disguised as a road block or other form of discouragement. Regardless~ its constant presence has defined this experience in such a bold and profoundly beautiful way.
Each day is filled to the brim with blessing. Today was no different...but today there was another mind blowing moment of our adoption journey. A blessing that is hard to believe we're experiencing.
Becky called to say she had something of a donation.
it turned out to be a simple white envelope...
filled with 100 dollar bills.
WHAT????
I could hardly count it.
We just stood in disbelief as we slowly counted all the way up to
1,200 dollars.
This is a gift from a young couple we do not know. I can't imagine all they have given up to share with us this sacrifice for the sake of Isaac.
We are so humbled and encouraged and blessed.
Thank you so very much, dear friends~ we wish we could adequately express our heartfelt gratitude for your treasured donation.
As we think about you tonight, we are reminded of Hebrews 6:10
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.

May you be blessed exceedingly~ this is our prayer for your sweet family. We will never forget this beautiful gift of love!

A tribute to the legacy of those who most recently donated....

2011-08-25T20:29:00.000-07:00

So I've heard through the "grapevine" who made the latest donation of $500.
And if by any chance they are reading this little post, I'd like to say;
Dear Mr. and Mrs. Wonderful ;)
You both have been such a blessing to my life. While I've only been able to admire you from afar, I've had the incredible blessing to know your two daughters. They are two of the most dynamic people I've ever met. I have often pondered, during times of reflection upon the topic of parenting, how it is you cultivated such beautiful, genuine, and unique qualities in your daughters. They are light and a very real blessing to so many. While in many ways they can be as different as can be~ something profound resonates similarly from both of them. They are honest, strong and compassionate. They are fun, funny and posses a zest for life that inspires others to get out of their shell and shine the way God intended them to!
I am so thankful for you, your daughters continually inspire me and I'm so thankful for their presence in our lives. Thank you for blessing us in so many ways, including this incredible donation towards Isaac's ransom~ we truly love your family!!
Love,
The Kelleys

THANK YOU!!!!

2011-08-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOODNESS!!!
A huge huge thank you to the person or people who have just donated to Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow. It seems so unreal that in a moment we are
*Two thousand dollars closer*
We are completely astounded.
Utterly amazed.
so very grateful to our sweet and (for now ;)anonymous donors
Thank you so so much for your generous gift.

sweet encouragement

2011-08-20T18:52:00.000-07:00

The second half of today has been especially wonderful! I spent the afternoon with friends; new and old. It was a fun girl time, A "31 party" and the proceeds will benefit Isaac's adoption. All because a new friend (who I'd never met before today) felt God's direction in her heart to be a part of Isaac's rescue. WOW! We all shed tears of joy today~ because this lovely woman, who is now a new friend, reached out to us and to Isaac when God gave her the opportunity to bless our lives. I'm so humbled and encouraged by her.
But it continues!! Tonight~ I check here and see someone anonymously donated $50 to his account! OH MY GOODNESS~ we are SO blessed by you!! Thank you, sweet anonymous donor!!!
Until a few weeks ago, we thought there was no way to know who has donated towards Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow. Since then, we've learned that periodically we will receive a list of donors names. If we know you, eventually...unless people are very sneaky ;) we'll be able to send you a thank you note. I feel badly for those who have given anonymously up until this point who perhaps wanted to remain anonymous :( I'm sorry, but now that I know~ I would love to send you a note from our family!! However, some people who have donated, we do not know personally and addresses are not included in the donor list, so I won't be able to thank you to these dear sweet ones.
But let me just say here: To each one who has given towards Isaac, we hope more than anything, you will be blessed exponentially for your sweet sacrifice. We desperately hope you know (whether we can get you a note, or not) that you have made a HUGE difference in our lives. We have no doubt about the miraculous way God will muliply your love offering. No matter if you see the amount you've given as "a little" or "a lot" it's all A LOT to us~ and we know these dollars reach farther than we would have thought possible~ its the fishes and loaves~ its just the beautiful way God works.
So thankful for the sweet encouragement of today. May you be encouraged, too.

It's official ~ We're half way!!!

2011-08-18T22:07:00.000-07:00

The day we dreamed was coming near has arrived.
Our total as of tonight is
$20,172
Just Astounding!!!
We are in awe of this beautiful miracle.
This money is for a ransom.
The staggering dollar amount that HAS TO BE RAISED to rescue the life of an orphan who faces life and death in a mental institution if no one comes to his rescue.
We knew when we started this journey, it wouldn't be a stroll in the park.
When we committed, it was 2 trips and an estimated cost of 30,000+
We did the math, added in the numbers that remained the variables and determined it for our family $40,000.
Since then, the stakes have been upped.
Word today was that there are now 4 trips and some additional requirements and average cost estimated starting at 40,000+
I sense evil attempting to flex a "muscle". Up the stakes. Drive the cost. Intimidate.
Truth is, this kingdom is not his to offer. A man we well respected once said "Satan is on a leash"
This situation is all under the authority of God. If the stakes are upped. If the ransom goes up. If the path to travel down to rescue a little child grows more difficult, dark and scary~ it only does so because GOD has allowed it to be so that He can SHOW HIS GLORY
I will not fear the war

And you know what else? This ALWAYS HAPPENS!!
Something goes haywire RIGHT before something astounding!!!
WE JUST PASSED THE 20,000 dollar mark!!! I cannot wipe this HUGE SMILE off my face!
Thank you, everyone. We are climbing this mountain, we are raising this ransom. We are working like a symphony to sing a beautiful song to all the world about a GREAT big God, and his beloved people~ reaching to save the life of one who could not save himself. We are so honored, absolutely honored to go together with you for this beautiful purpose.
Thank you so much!!! We love you!!!

Unexpected blessing!!!

2011-08-16T11:26:00.001-07:00

I thought all donors to Isaac's account would forever be anonymous, but just this morning I received a list of our donors names!! If we don't know our sweet donors personally, we won't be able to a thank you to them since we don't have their personal address or anything, which does make me sad. But I will write them ALL the same and save them for the hope that one day I'll be able to give them even a small note to express the INCREDIBLE gratitude we have for their sacrifice ♥ I am SO EXCITED to get started writing these 'Thank You's'!!! ♥

Thinking of you

2011-08-13T21:22:00.000-07:00

So many wonderful things have happened this week. I can't wait to finish my post about them all. But tonight I'm just missing him...
Sad that we can't tuck him in.
Tell him he is loved.
Attend to his every need.
I'm sad and just wish he wasn't waiting for all of the love he should have been receiving all along.

This is a picture of him from about a year ago.
If he had been able to hold him in my arms at that moment, I don't think I would have been able to resist showering him with a thousand hugs and kisses. He is just so precious.
I hate that he is having to wait for the love of a mommy and a daddy...for sisters and a brother.
No one should have to wait to be loved.
Will you pray for him?

AHH!! Sweet Suprise Donation!!

2011-08-11T18:12:00.000-07:00

Someone just anonymously donated $50!!!
Thank you!!! I hope you see this little post and know what a BIG difference you have made! I cannot tell you how our hearts leap when we unexpectedly see that number jump so high!!!God bless you~ you have blessed our family more than you know. {Hugs}

SO BLESSED!!

2011-08-09T12:20:00.000-07:00

Today we deposited the miracle money from the Phoenix and Portland change drives because we received a check for $340 from the Guardian Angels' change drive and parent's night out. WOW WOW WOW!!! Their card was the *sweetest* too~ I just love those precious girls!! It took about an hour inside the bank with my kids!! What an absolute blessing :) Just another miracle of this adoption story~ my children were absolute cherubs!!! I was smiling from ear to ear while I had the opportunity to share the story behind ALL THIS CHANGE! The tellers were so touched as I relayed to them the miracle and astounding amount of money raised through the change drives. For every penny, nickle, dime, quarter and dollar amount...Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!!!

Following Jesus

2011-08-08T19:01:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking.
I've been thinking about how much support and encouragement we have received for so many since we announced our news.
We announced we were embarking on a great adventure, a rescue mission, most of all a faith walk.
As followers of Jesus, we have often called God our "Lord and Father". And in the middle of the month of May, He clearly invited us to demonstrate that belief through obedience and faith. Hebrews 11:16 Admittedly excited and scared, what's a self proclaimed "follower" to do?
We posted a picture of Isaac for all the world to see and announced we were committing to pursue the rescue of his very life.
We felt God move mightily in our hearts to bring us to that decision...and though we were quaking in our boots, we knew we could not turn away from what had happened in our minds, hearts, and marriage.
How did we "know"? Well, I guess you just had to be there! Come what may...we could no less turn away from this pursuit than we could have turned away from Isaac crying out to us if he were within arms reach.
When we announced our news, it kind of felt like we were announcing a pregnancy. I know that might sound strange if you've never experienced what I can only describe as a child being conceived in your spirit; but that's a little how it felt.
It has also felt so unexpectedly wonderful to have the outpouring of love and financial gifts that we have experienced. Believe me, we will always remember each comment, donation and encouraging word. A couple of weeks ago our Pastor, along with leaders and dear friends prayed for us. They gathered around us and our Pastor prayed that we "would never feel alone" I can tell you that Jesus breathed those words out of him. And I cried like a baby. These words were so powerful for us and we know we will never be alone in this. God has raised up an army through this process...and the result has been like an incredible extended family for Isaac. Those who will go down in the books for reaching out to him in effort to pull him from the jaws of death when he could do nothing to defend himself. We are honored to be a part of this army of love.
We would have never. ever. imagined the generosity we have experienced. I know it has changed us forever as people.
And yet...
something else unexpected happened too. A few fellow believers, a very small few who we anticipated supporting us, have appeared to have pulled away and withheld support.
This is ok.
But it has been hard.
God never just does one thing at once and He's certainly doing more in our hearts than just processing the adoption through this. He's pressing us to count the cost of rejection while following Him.
Remember the song "I have decided to follow Jesus"? A week ago I remembered singing that song as a little child. I remember belting those words a hundred times in church "though none go with me, still I will follow...no turning back, no turning back"
Well what if a LOT of people go with you...but just not a couple that you really wanted to join you? I'll admit, its hard for me. (What a baby, right?!! LOL)
While we have SO many people backing us, praying for us, blessing us; sometimes the grieving over the few who aren't can be faith crippling...if I let it.
The point? By the power God, I am refusing to let this cripple my obedience. I will only get so many times to obey when its THIS CLEAR. "No turning back, No turning back" It would be nice if everyone supported us in everything we do, but that is really a crazy expectation! And one I need to totally release! When I face God on that glorious day, I want so desperately to have obeyed him. I'm not talking about being perfect, I'm talking about following Jesus~ no turning back. I am so thankful God is using such a beautiful thing to "cook" these things out of us.
Following the Lord in our lives means leaving comfortable places to reach better places. If He is our Lord, we must follow what we believe Him to be directing us to do.
Luke 6:46 Jesus speaks and says:
"Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?
The Holy Spirit of God uses this verse to burn straight to the issue of the heart when I try to squirm away from His clear conviction.

Along the way, people may have different ideas about what your life should look like.
But only God knows what He has intended.
And in the end, we will answer to Him.
THAT needs to be our motivation and passion.

My reason for sharing is certainly not to complain~ YUCK and NO WAY!! We have been blessed beyond description and I am overcome with gratitude daily!! Multiple times, daily!!! I just want to be open and honest about how this process is challenging and changing us. I have so far to go, and these experiences are helping me to grow. Believe me~ I wouldn't change it for the world!
*****

Today I am was so encouraged to remember the beloved place adoption has in the heart of our father. It is in fact the only reason He is my father, today. Romans 8:15 says it so beautifully!

For you didn't receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!"

Translation? "The spirit of adoption - The feeling of affection, love, and confidence which pertains to children; not the servile, trembling spirit of slaves, but the temper and affectionate regard of sons. Adoption is the taking and treating a stranger as one's own child. It is applied to Christians because God treats them as his children; he receives them into this relation, though they were by nature strangers and enemies." (Barnes notes on the Bible)

Thank you for adopting me, Father! Traveling all the way from the throne of Heaven and costing You the suffering and death of your beloved Son. What kind of Love is this? I am so thankful You saved me from my certain death and made me your daughter; precious in your sight.

Almost HALF WAY!!!

2011-08-05T20:00:00.001-07:00

Have you ever been lost for words, so overcome that you feel like you almost cannot stand?
That was this week.
Earlier this week all at once people began anonymously donating into Isaac's account...one after another, $25, $50 and more and then someone else donated well over $3,000. I literally saw stars and thought I was gonna faint!
Thank you, sweet anonymous donors. We don't know who you are and we cannot properly thank you unless you contact us but if you are reading, then let me tell you..we are overcome with emotion and gratitude. Thank you, Thank you Thank you to each person who blessed us exceedingly this week!!

This week we also began counting the pennies, nickles, dimes, quarters, half dollars and dollars for the July change drive..and rechecked our math over and over because the total came to over $1,363.52!!
Can you believe that??
I remember buying the mason jars and supplies for the change drive jars and thinking...ok; if we make more than $50 we should break even. Lord, could you please help us do that??
A few weeks ago, my good friend told me she had the faith that God was going to bring in over a thousand dollars through the change drive.
"Oh No!" I thought to myself "She's gonna feel SO BAD when she realizes we ended no where close to that kind of total! Will she think I failed? God failed? Will she feel badly later for saying this to me? How could anyone think that could actually happen?"
Well, it did.
IT DID!!
Because of so many giving people, and a gracious God that blessed what was given the same way He blessed the fishes and loaves on a grassy hill side so many years ago.
He is doing a new work today...but with the same authority and power as always. I am so thankful that Jesus is the same yesterday and today and forever and I kept thinking about that verse today.
Although He is forever the same; my understanding of Him continues to change and expound. It has to- He's too awesome for this little mind to grasp! Our prayer is that through this process with us, experiencing each miracle and milestone~ you will be blessed exponentially for the blessed hand you have had in the rescue of this precious child. And just as God is pursuing Isaac in His great love, we pray every day, you will know the pursuit of His love towards you, too. Thank you for using your time, talents and blessings to bring us to where we are today. Because of how you've reached out, our arms are reaching further and stronger than they could ever be on their own. Thank you, dear friends. We are nearly half way there financially. That is a miracle!!! It has been through the great and precious sacrifice you have made. From our family to yours, from the bottom of our hearts, thank you. We love you!

August Fund Raiser!!!

2011-08-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

(July change drive...we haven't forgotten you! I am counting change nightly and cannot wait to announce the total and the winner for the drawing!!)

But
I have been waiting for this day...
August 1st
The day that has been set aside to announce a special new project for the month of August. Here it is, if you so desire to donate $100.00 or more toward Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow, an artist named Johanna, who happens to be one of my dearest friends, is sending you a print of her work entitled
Matthew 10:29-31, as a thank you. The story behind this drawing, still gets me all misty eyed. Thank you Lord for the sweet and precious reminders you send us along the way that You are leading us in this journey. Don't you just love it?? It is more precious to us than words can say.

The original artwork is matted and framed and ready to be hung is Isaac's room here at home. (Sniff, sniff) It makes me SO deliriously happy to think of copies of this artwork hanging in homes across the U.S and beyond. Each one a precious memoir of this incredible journey.

If you would like to be a part of this special project for Isaac, we would be so excited to think of a this special print hanging in your home as a forever reminder and thank you.

To donate an recieve a print click "donate" on the Reece's Rainbow box to the right. Enter any amount of $100 or more. You will recieve an email copy of your receipt from Reece's Rainbow, please forward a copy of your that receipt to Johanna at imagesbyjohanna@yahoo.com

In addition, this print is still a hostess gift for anyone who hosts a "Night in for Isaac" I am getting so excited about all these parties by the way...my friends have come up with THE most creative ideas~ can't wait to share them!

One day...I hope to have a collage hanging up with snap shots of Johanna's artwork hanging up in each and every home it found it's way to stay. Wouldn't that be beautiful...what a testimony!

...I want to write more...but I MUST sleep :)

Rochelli's Pizza Place Fundraiser

2011-07-29T20:22:00.001-07:00

They were strangers until they were like family.
We met Dennis and Jamie at the garage sale in June.
Dennis came back and told us they wanted to help us if they could somehow.
It was a Tuesday night on the way to small group when Jason spoke again with Dennis and he told him that they were friends with the owners of a pizza place. He had spoken with them and they wanted to help us do a fund raiser.
We were shocked.
I connected with the owners, Shelley and Mark, they set up a date and the rest is almost too good to be true!
Last night our friends and family STORMED the place. (Thank you so much everyone!!!)
It was all hands on deck let me tell ya!
It was a beautiful night and before we left, Mark and Shelley handed us a check for $550.00!!!
I really kinda think I was in shock. Seriously!!
You would think we're old friends.
FAMILY friends.
For people to extend themselves out to us the way they have.
Nope.
WE HAD BARELY MET THEM!!! Jason met them for the first time 15 minutes before they started taking orders!
!!WHAT???!!!
They just kept saying:
"You have to understand, this is the way we do things"
It's obvious they don't live life just to please themselves.
They are motivated by more than their own personal gain... Even among strangers.
That is so inspiring to us.

They make me wonder. Falling asleep last night,
How do I "do things" so to speak?
What am I leaving in my trail as I travel this road of life? How am I touching the lives of others as I press onward in my pursuits? Of course it reminds of a song because there is a song for everything. ;)

Thank you to everyone who came, ate, served and supported. You have done more than you know.
You are all an inspiration to us~ this was a faith building, love tank filling, awe inspiring, night we will always remember. And LOOK at how that green thermometer has moved since! Thank you so much~We could have never done this without you!!!

There are no words...

2011-07-26T13:18:00.000-07:00

because the words seem to fall so short.
When it comes to expressing our heartfelt absolute astonishment. Brace yourself for this:
**$2,250.00**
was in moment anonymously deposited into Isaac's account through Reece's Rainbow.
WHAAAAATT???!!! Did you about fall out of your chair when you saw that? We did!!! Jason was the first to see it online. We check our blog more often than you know. Just to see his face again, remember anew the miracles we've experienced so far. We think about Isaac all the time. When Jason saw the update he called me in disbelief and he was absolutely overjoyed. It was so awesome. I wish I had a recording to share...and to listen to again just for fun!:)
How do you thank the person or perhaps the people who have in a moment propelled us so many steps forward in this process?
We have only these words we offer and pour out to you, as we also pour them out to our Lord and provider.
Thank you, whoever you are. You have no idea the timeliness of your gift. What an absolute encouragement and blessing you are in this journey. May you be blessed beyond description. That is our prayer for you.

Stepping forward to be obedient to the Lord's leading hasn't meant we've been protected from difficulty. But this is what our pastor shared the past week, and we are finding it to be so true:
"The will of God is not just the safest place to be...its the ONLY safe place." We are so thankful to know we are protected under the shelter of the wings of the Almighty.
And here's the verse it reminds me of in Psaml 36:7-8
How precious is your unfailing love, O God!
All humaity finds shelter in the shadow of your wings. You feed them from the abundance of your own house, letting them drink from your rivers of delight.
Abundance and delight INDEED!!

Since our announcement on May 28th Everyone TOGETHER in this process has raised over $12,000 towards what often is referred to as the "Ransom" for these precious children's lives. Can you believe what has taken place in a little less than 2 months time? This is nothing short of full fledge MIRACLE!!! The green thermometer represents this number as it is a combination of craft sales, garage sales, and cash donations etc AND the tax deductible donations that have been made through Reece's Rainbow.

Thank You to each one who has been a part of this incredible journey so far. Each anonymous donor, each contributor and every single praying saint. Thank you so much to our Lord. This is your story and YOU alone have the authority to write it how it glorifies and pleases You. We are absolutely honored to be a part with You. THY will be done on earth as it is in Heaven, In Jesus name!

So long Insecurity

2011-07-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time coming.
And thank God the day has finally come.
...
Rewind a few years ago. God entrusted me with a life changing experience shortly after the birth of my son Elijah nearly 4 years ago; Another story for another time. But I thought from that moment on, I would live differently because honestly; I felt different.
I wanted to sing like no one was listening.
Dance like no one was watching.
Live for an audience of One...because I suddenly realized that was all that truly mattered.
But something got in the way...something has always been in the way. At least as long as I can remember, anyway.
Insecurity
One big ugly word that describes a prison I've hung out inside for
waay too long.
I hate to admit that the lock was off the door to the cell for quite some time and still...I have been too afraid to leave.
Little by little I've noticed the boldness I felt after my precious life changing experience, slip away.
it was a passive release at first. And then suddenly I found myself in what felt like on coming traffic. Multiple, devestating relational trials left my head spinning and my eyes blinking.
I'd be lying if I tried to convince you that I haven't tried to make a promise to myself to ensure that NEVER happens again. I wanted to draw a line in the sand and say from this point, I'm not letting people in, I'm not opening up my heart. I soon realized however, I couldn't live with the freedom and love I so desperately wanted to, and remain inside that prison. What I didn't realize until this point is how focused on ME, my insecurity has truly made me.
Thank God He has other plans for me.
He's pursued me relentlessly and whispered to my heart that there's something better and definitely sweeter than committing to a life long "shutdown" to avoid pain.
Still, I've tolerated and even played the accomplice to the monster of insecurity had continued to weave so tightly around my heart. The year before this last year, I began to feel I was no more than a particular person's perception of me may be...whoever it may be at the time. Constant apologizing to everyone for who I am and who I could appear to be. Feeling ashamed for what I fear I could be characterized as regardless of the truth behind it. Each person became my mirror and I feared the image they saw of me. I was constantly fearing rejection feeling my identity could not be truly secured. Fearing stepping out, speaking out, reaching out...
It was around 6 months before my 30th birthday that God whispered to my heart that things are changing in this 30 year of my life. Not sure of what it meant, but still, it gave me hope. Thank God that He doesn't leave us how we are. I didn't know how to begin that process at the time, but He did. He called me to trust him with the results and I focused my mind to begin following His lead. And lead he does, after all He is the good shepherd!

God brought definition to a calling to our lives.
God brought us to look upon Isaac.
Then God called us to step out. WAY out.
To take a step that didn't have room for my familiar indulgence of insecurity. Because making room for love, meant having to leave the prison of insecurity and constant self doubt.
fundraising, advocating, blogging, and falling in love with a child across the world soon to be our son.
And this past week especially has been a doozy! And believe me when I tell you that
Insecurity has reared is UGLY head in this process.
It has created a crisis of belief.
Am I going to lie down and just take it, or am I going to step into what I've been dreaming about doing for years now?
I've made my choice.
I am moving forward and out of this stinking dungeon!
Insecurity and self doubt will be formally and finally refused.
So long Insecurity, I simply do not have room for you and for love. I am happy to announce, Love Wins!

An except of a prayer from "So Long Insecurity" by Beth Moore

"Please restore to my soul all the insecurity has stolen from me. Overturn every single thing the enemy meant for evil into something good. Perform a miracle on me, Lord. Cover me with Your trustworthy hand. Clothe me with strength and dignity. Transform what drives me. Quell what triggers me. Make me a courageous woman in this harrowing culture...Today I receive my dignity back. No one and nothing can take it from me because You are the one who gave it. Empower me to claim it back and hang on to it will all my might. Because of your mercy, Lord, I am no fool. Only a wise woman shifts her trust to You."

Thank you Lord for your Goodness. This process is calling me out, and calling me into what I have for so. long. desperately. longed for. Away from the monster of insecurity and into your arms of my Abba. You are my safe place, I will finally, at long last begin to rest in You, Father.

Guardian Angels

2011-07-20T22:18:00.000-07:00

They are known as "The Guardian Angels"
Amanda, Caitin, Genesis and Madison
Ages 15,16,11 and 14
4 girls with 147 millions missions.

From their blog "Caitlin, Genesis, and sisters; Madison and Amanda are separated by states but 3 of them have something special in common. Their brothers were born with an extra chromosome.

Genesis' brothers, Gabe and Levi and Amanda and Madison's brother Vahnya were adopted through Reece's Rainbow. a non-profit organization that advocates for orphans with special needs (particularly down syndrome). "

I came to know Caitlin first as she was praying for Isaac before we committed to him through Reece's Rainbow. Ever since, she's been like family to us. Since then these girls have joined forces and have established an incredible vision for their young lives. They want to advocate for families adopting through RR and they've just gotten started. They are prayerfully choosing families to fund raise for along the way. They will choose a new family every 2 months. So they've picked their first family...
Guess who these precious Guardian Angels have chosen????

SWEET LITTLE ISAAC!!!

These girls blow me away. They are on it! Their faith and passion challenges me. Their love and dedication humbles me. Their sensitivity to the the Holy Spirit's leading is leading others around them.

Their first fundraiser is this Friday evening. They had the brilliant idea to host a parent's night out. Parents drop off their kiddos in a licensed in home care setting and and go out and enjoy a date night. GENIUS! Donations for the night will benefit Isaac's adoption fund. Will you pray over the event with me? Not just for Isaac's sake but for these GIRLS!!! I've come to love each of them dearly! I feel like their big sister, they are so out there and available with their hearts; Advocating for these precious orphans through their sweat and tears. I'm so proud of them, but I feel protective of them too. I pray they feel supported and encouraged through their faithful efforts but also leave the results to the Lord, trusting and KNOWING that he will bless the work of their hands as they commit themselves to the Lord in all they do.You can also find them on facebook here. I love you, Guardian Angels! You have meant more to our family and our journey of faith than you know, dear sweet girls!!

Over a quarter of the way there!!! This Miracle and more

2011-07-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

It has been a whirlwind. And maybe I shouldn't do this. Maybe I shouldn't combine it all into one post...but that's how it is sometimes. It's all jumbled together.
These incredible miracles... and these moments of misery.
The roller coaster of life...your heart pulls hard left, then hard right.
You feel the weight of these things.
Some unbelievably wonderful, some terribly sad.
Sunday morning right before church my dad called to say my Uncle had almost passed away Saturday night. He has been fighting cancer something terrible. It was a very hard conversation..I wish I could have just been with my dad in that moment. We hung up.
I left a moment later for church, Jason and I had been given the incredible chance to share with everyone there a little bit about Isaac's story. We were so grateful for the opportunity.
Good thing Jason was up there with me. I had practiced so many times but, in the moment, I just couldn't get those words out of my mouth without falling a part. "Adult Mental Institution" I just can't say those words and be speaking about Isaac or any child in the same sentence. It will seriously not come out without tears..and I don't mean dainty tear drops, I mean the ugly cry. We got through it. Jason is my hero. We had the opportunity to talk with friends afterwards about exciting ideas and potential donations..our hearts soared!
Less than an hour after we got home from church I glanced at my blog and saw someone had donated $100.00. Again we soared with gratitude! Wonderful~ thank you SO much, sweet anonymous donor!! It was just minutes later I was running around and jumping in my car and heading to see my Uncle for maybe the last time. I was so heavy and disappointed. I wish I had more time with him. Where has the time gone? My heart was so burdened for him..for my dad who is devastated by all his brother is going through.
I found myself a couple hours later at my brother's house in the town where my Uncle is. While I waited there to meet up with my dad I caught up with my brother and told him we were about $400 away from reaching $10,000. My brother pulled his checkbook out and told me that he and his wife wanted to be the ones who put us over 10,000. He wrote me a check for $400.00 right there. I was in disbelief that it was happening...and then we realized we were still 16 dollars shy of 10,000. He and Sara got up, riffled through their home to find a bag of change and with quarters and nickles flying they counted up to $15.00. Michael realized we were still $1 short of 10,000 and still needed one more dollar to "break" 10,000. It was so amazing~ I wish I had it on tape. I wanted to cry but I just kept laughing and screaming it was so fun!! Sara found 2 dollar bills and together we celebrated the magical, miraculous, wildy fun milestone moment. Could it get any sweeter?
God~ I am AMAZED by YOU and what you have done in our lives through the sacrifices and love gifts of so many amazingly beautiful people!!!!
WOW
I left there on top of the world with this faith building moment...to go see my beloved Uncle. In so much pain. In such misery.
I couldn't do much. Just rub his feet and hands a little. But I prayed and told him how much I love him and how much we all love him. We said goodnight to him after a number of hours. My heart felt so stretched with pain.
I saw him again this morning and just tried to be with him and love on him as best as I could. I hope he feels it, I hope he feels a love higher than our love in his heart, I hope he feels the Love of all Loves~ reaching towards him. I hope I get to see him again, but I want what's best for him, only God could what that is...

Then on the way home a friend shared a blog post with my about a sweet girl named Teri Lynn.
A darling one who has been transferred...to that place that I can hardly speak of. To the adult mental institution.She is deteriorating fast. I just keep wondering; Where is your mamma sweet heart? I just know she's coming for her soon. Please see her picture and story here

Last in the night, another adoptive mom who is traveling soon near to where Isaac is, reached out to me and comforted me saying she would look out for Isaac while she is there. If there is something an adoptive mamma would ever want to hear from a friend..it is this; let me assure you. It helps to hope for these things, it really does.
Our journeys couldn't have been sweeter so far...but sometimes it woven through with the harder moments too.
I can't believe we're here. I can't believe we are one quarter of the way through the seemingly impossible financial mountain that stands between us and the precious and beloved child we desperately want to pull close to us as our son. Thank you everyone...we are so blessed by your goodness and graciousness to us and sweet little Isaac.
All our love to you and your precious dear ones.

The Light

2011-07-15T21:40:00.000-07:00

Ok..fess up!!! Who are you?? If I only knew I could make you brownies, cookies or your favorite cake! Something to say thank you for
$700.00
AHHH!!!
A HUGE 700 dollars closer to holding him closer...
When I think of you, sweet anonymous donor. I think of this verse in Matthew 25:40

“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me."

Thank you, thank you so. very. very. much.

Last night I was wondering how Isaac's day had been. I often wonder this before I fall asleep at night. Does he see the light of day? Does he know when its sunny outside? My online adoption class was explaining how children in orphanages don't often go outside, ever.
Even less likely when they have special needs.
I've learned this to be true through other adoptive mom's blogs. Many of the special needs children have spent literally their entire life in their cribs.
I don't know if Isaac has seen the light of day like we do everyday. A beautiful sunrise. Mid morning sunshine; You know the feeling, when the sun warms your skin and you just soak it up! Sunsets, The lights at night, the moon (kids LOVE the moon) the stars...I wonder.

But one thing stands out about Isaac to me.
The light I see in him.
The light God has put in him.
The story of his life that God is writing, so it shines for all to see.
The way it felt in my heart the very first time I saw his picture. That light shot straight to my heart and it took my breath away.
literally.

I heard a song on the radio tonight that I love. I've always interpreted it a certain way. But tonight~ I listened to it differently. It reminded me of Isaac. It reminded me of the light God has placed in Isaac. So that his life shines like a beacon.
God is rescuing this precious one. He is using so many people to do it.
As God is lifting this child up He is showing Himself
In All His Glory
Father. Redeemer. Healer. Comforter. I AM.

Here's the song. Imagine Isaac as one of God's vessel's of light to this world that can be so dark. Shine you light, Father!

Watch, listen and imagine what God's going to do through Isaac's life. And through yours.
Enjoy here

My cup runneth over...

2011-07-13T21:34:00.000-07:00

Ahhh...where to begin?
Last night I posted because I was so entirely blessed through someone's 1,000.00 anonymous donation. Then, mid morning there it was.
Another 1,000.00 anonymous donation. I thought my heart might surely burst. Thank you, whoever you may be...thank you. We are truly speechless.
Then, I head off to my children's dentist appointment at 11 this morning...
after the appointment, the dentist hands me..yet
Another 1,000.00 donation.

I felt almost weak and helpless to offer my thanks to the donors and to the Lord. How can this be happening??!!

These 3 huge donations represent God's provision in a very personal way to us.
This past week we realized 3 major fundraising events we'd been dreaming about were not going to happen. At least not right now.
I knew that was going to be alright. But if I'm being really honest, we were a little disappointed...but still we were pushing forward in faith knowing God is big
enough.
And then in less than 24 hours God chose to reveal himself and his glory almost as if saying
"Jason and Jaime, your plans have been good ideas. Some of them will happen; some of them will not. But no matter what~ I am writing My story through this story. Just watch as I show you My glory. I can move in hearts and do the miraculous~ I can see to it that the 3,000 you would have raised by those 3 events combined be deposited in your account in a day."

Wow. Jehovah Jireh, Our Provider. We are just in awe of You!!

We are so grateful to so many people now who have donated to help bring Isaac home to us. Each and EVERY single one of you have made all the difference in the world to us through your sacrificial gift. Please don't think for a second that all of our gushing about these 3 thousand dollar donations has meant that we value a smaller contribution any less. NOT SO!!! Every penny fills us with gratitude in this process. I mean that with everything~ that's why I rejoice about every penny in our change drive! Our excitement and astonishment about the last 24 hours has been so much due to the fact that we have NO idea where the majority of it came from and it came at a time that the door was closing on 3 other fund raising events. To everyone who had donated in this process so far, including the sweet angel that donated 15.00 last night while we were sleeping~ we are truly humbled and appreciative of your each and every sacrifice. I pray you hear my heart so loud and clear~ thank you so very much. We love you!!

1,000 kisses and more

2011-07-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

I cannot hardly type.
Someone..just donated $1,000.00
...
I can't even think straight.
You know what's so hard?
I have no idea who. I hope you are reading this, so I'm able in some way to tell you Thank you.
As I sit here and just stare at the dollar amount in his account. My mind thinks about every single donation. Each sacrifice. I think about each penny, nickle, dime, and dollar.
How they have been added. By people who have given so sacrificially.
In my mind I begin to see our life with Isaac. In fast forward as he grows in strength and in love. I think about how someone just put
a thousand dollars
in our account to bring him home to our family. And through their incredible sacrifice
I see
a thousand kisses
I'll be able to give him. A thousand hugs to let him know just how cherished and loved he truly is. A thousand bedtime stories. A thousand giggles and smiles.
Each kiss, hug and snuggle has your name on it. These precious moments will have been made possible through your incredible sacrifice. Whoever you are, to whoever has been giving, Thank you for your precious gifts.

Hold on precious Isaac...you may be lacking for love in your crib right now, I pray somehow you know; There are a thousand of kisses and hugs and snuggles coming soon to help you to understand the incredible gift you truly, truly are.

WHO JUST DONATED??!!!

2011-07-10T22:36:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH!!!!! Who are you? I just screamed when I looked at Isaac's account!!!! Thank you whoever you are~ We have no way of knowing who you are but we are praying you will be blessed exponentially!

Did we jump in too soon?

2011-07-09T20:00:00.001-07:00

We've gotten this question. And even when they aren't asking~ their faces say it for them. It goes a little something like this "Wow! Special needs adoption. That's a really big decision and it seems a little fast".

So.
fair question:
Did we jump in too soon? I won't speak for Jason and his story to tell but for me,
That question takes me back..not takes me "a back" but it takes me back to another decision I made a
long...long...time
ago.

I remember I was about 6. I remember exactly where I was.
I was just a child and I was about to make the biggest decision of my life. It would impact me for years. I had no idea what it could eventually cost me. And I had no concept of the blessings that it would usher in like a flood. I was only 6. Maybe that decision should be the one in question here because
I gave my life.
I gave my dreams.
I imagined my life journey unrolling like a road before me and I asked God to guide it, and to write my life's story from His heart.
And even as a child, I meant every single word.
I prayed over and over.
"God don't let me miss it". I wanted to know when He was guiding me, when He was directing me because I knew I wouldn't be able to anticipate it.
And He gave me a little song. A song I would sing on and off throughout my life. It was just a simple prayer between God and I. I would sing to him my prayer to be able to have His heart for His children. "I want to love them with your love..."
...
As a teenager; I struggled. I wandered. I failed. And I got on my face and prayed over and over.
"God don't let me miss it and don't let me go"
I gave again my life.
I gave my dreams.
and I meant every single word.

I handed God my life like a blank check and begged Him to cash it in at
any time.
any place.

So did this decision come too soon? With joy I can say
Well...It's been a little over 24 years.

Hearing this was the final piece for Jason and I in beginning this process. This is "our song" for Isaac's adoption.

Now even $100.00 CLOSER!!

2011-07-03T12:54:00.000-07:00

Guess What!!!
A wonderful woman I'm friends with at church donated $100.00 toward Isaac's adoption today!! Can you believe it?! I couldn't wait to get home and update the fundraising thermometer below on the right side!! We are so grateful :)

4th of July Sale Update!!!

2011-07-02T21:13:00.000-07:00

We are $247.00 closer to bringing sweet Isaac home!! WOW!!!

My sister, the beautiful Elizabeth Jean, hosted our table all day at outside Brother's Pizza. She faced down the heat and shared our story with everyone she could. I'm so blessed by her and so proud she is my sister. LOVE YOU LIZZY!!
I parked myself at Mia Familia and had a absolutely wonderful time despite the heat. We had friends and family who stopped by and kept us company which made everything even better. Some stayed for an hour, some for over 4 hours!! We were so blessed by each of you :)

I am so thrilled by the money we made! We're continuing to chip away at this financial mountain and it is so very exciting and encouraging. Amidst this victory, there is another treasure that is even sweeter; and it is the conversations we have, stories we hear, and the connections we make with the new friends we are meeting along the way.

Some people are so generous all you can do is cry. Our first "sale" was no sale at all. A man and his sweet daughter just walked up to us and handed us $50.00. I found myself refusing it but he remained firm and I could tell he was enjoying every bit of his sacrifice. WOW! I don't know why I feel resistant when generous people lavish blessings like this. It's obvious they aren't doing it for ME!! Still, its so humbling. I want to give like they gave. They inspire me and I want to bless someone as I have been blessed! This process is changing me and I am forever grateful for it.

Some people come like prophets. They share with you an idea or a website and guide you towards the next opportunity you will pursue. I am always so grateful but I don't think these people often realize what a divine encouragement they are. It's so awesome, I think we are that for people at times we don't even realize it. I want to make myself available to echo God's blessing and divine guidance for others too!

Some people start texting their friends..like right then. They take on your burden and rally others around them to do the same. They connect with him emotionally and start to gush with love for him instantaneously. I then get to gush back about my own feelings and thoughts and its soo fun! I want to jump in and champion another family like that.

Some people just totally avoid you like the plague. And that's completely ok. It just makes me think about all the other times I avoid other people too. And that's not always a bad thing. You can't be all things to all people. I feel there's tremendous freedom and well being in that understanding. But its good for me to remember that the person KNOWS I'm avoiding them, I need to remember to offer those sweet little girl scouts and extra smile and wink even when I'm in a huge hurry and have no intention of buying those addictive thin mints~ eye contact and smile can make a difference to them~ no purchase necessary.

My heart is full and I am inspired and changed from the inside out. Such a beautiful day! Thank you, Lord :)

4th of July SALE TOMORROW!

2011-07-01T11:36:00.001-07:00

If you're hungry tomorrow (Saturday) and looking for a GREAT place to eat for lunch/dinner come visit us at 67th Avenue and Happy Valley @ Brother's Pizza (Fry's side) or Mia Familia (Walmart side)!! BOTH of these places are deelish! And both of these local restaurants are owned and staffed by truly hardworking and generous people!
We'll have a table set up outside both locations during lunch and dinner to sell 4th of July goodies to benefit Isaac's adoption. We're offering sweet children's aprons, adorable hair clips and head bands, and gorgeous 4th of July glass luminaries perfect for walkways, counters and more~ they are so festive!! We'll have other goodies you're gonna love so bring a friend and come check us out!

Our Valued Agency Partners

2011-06-27T14:13:00.000-07:00

Someone asked me today about the accreditation of our adoption agencies and organizations. What a great question! I'm proud to share a little about the organizations we have chosen and invite you to learn more about the outstanding agencies we have partnered with to navigate this incredible process!

1. Reece's Rainbow, 501c3, People magazine's RC Hero of the Year 2010, http://reecesrainbow.org/

2. Christian Family Care agency 501c3 http://www.cfcare.org/

3. Global Adoption Services Inc; Fully Hague Accredited http://www.adoptglobal.org/

To learn more about any non profit 501c3 visit http://www2.guidestar.org/

Thursday, Saturday and Sunday's updates!!

2011-06-26T16:05:00.000-07:00

Thursday 20 plus friends and myself gathered for Craft Night for Isaac to complete various crafts and projects to be used in future raffles and fundraising events. It was SO MUCH FUN!! Everyone did such an amazing job an we seriously had a great time! Thanks to every person who came especially the table leaders; Lynn and Kathie (my mom and Jason's mom) Megan, Tena, Kristin and Taryn; you all did a beautiful job! And most especially to Megan who dreamed the idea first and organized the entire event which included reserving the room, organizing snacks, and adding all of the finishing touches that made the time so very special. I can't wait to tell him all about it, Megan :) Many have even asked if we're going to do another craft night!! My answer; YES! I would love to enjoy another fun and purposeful evening with friends~ and I'm so glad our friends had a great time. I hope to be announcing another one soon and look forward to even more friends joining us!

Saturday (yesterday) we finalized our donation requests for local businesses. Such an answer to prayer Thank you for all your help Becky!! I printed them at at Fedex and walkedArrowhead's Target Store's "square." Some businesses responded immediately and at the end of the day we had $40 in certificates from Olive Garden and $20 from On The Border. Two great restaurants with great food and fabulous service. How cool is that! When I came home Jason was in the middle of selling the above ground pool that donated to us by the Robinett Family. We are so thankful!!
Sunday (today) after church I stopped by to speak with the manager of Sprouts at Thunderbird and 83rd. On the spot he generously donated a $25 Sprouts gift card!! I love Spouts Farmers Market, who wouldn't want a gift card to their store! Tonight another local pizza place at 67th and Happy Valley jumped on board and donated a $25 Brother's Pizza gift card! They even asked if they could post our flyer! (YAY!) We are getting so excited to announce the location of our next fundraiser where these awesome gifts as well as the sweet crafts will be available through raffles and prizes! These future fund raising event updates are coming soon :)

The Sparrow and the Father

2011-06-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

This beautiful work of art was drawn by my lovely friend, Johanna. She has generously offered to give a copy to any person who hosts a "Night In for Isaac" party (or simply donates $100 or more into his account) during the month of August. More on the details at the bottom of the page.

A little about the piece...When I first saw it, I could not stop crying. When Jason saw it, he too was in disbelief. Johanna didn't realize it at the time, but the whole piece was divinely inspired.
You see, while Jason and I were praying and fasting about this adoption, God was speaking to us through the verse written on the piece (Mathew 10:29-31). Over and over again we were reminded of this scripture. But there is more... from the moment we began praying about adopting Isaac, we began to find birds everywhere. The sad part about that is that the birds we continually came across had perished and fallen. It happened over and over every time we were together, it became very sad for us. These instances came to be a continual reminder of the grave situation these precious orphans face daily. Each time we found a sparrow, would be reminded of the verse that "not a single sparrow falls outside the father's care" but we grieved the loss of life..thinking of all the beautiful children who were languishing and perishing in cribs in Isaac's country and other countries like his. It is so sad to think of them being transported at age 4 to adult mental institutions, kept in inhumane conditions where most of them will perish within the first year of malnutrition. The pain of it all is so terrible.

Since we committed to Isaac, we haven't seen any more fallen birds. And then Johanna sent us the piece of art. Words cannot express. I feel like God is bringing us full circle...even as we grieve the loss for so many, He is reminding us the promise and the hope that he is bringing to each child blessed through the story of adoption. The whole picture reminds me of how God adopts each one of us as HIS children, and because of that, we have a real opportunity to experience true and pure love that changes us forever. I don't know that I've ever appreciated My adoptive father, God, the way I do now. Our Father in heaven has never forgotten Isaac and He has never forgotten any of us. Even in our darkest moments, he calls out to us to remember "not one sparrow will fall to the ground outside your Father's care...so do not be afraid you are worth more than many sparrows " Mathew 10:29-31

**If you like a party~ The idea behind these parties is SO fun and SO easy! You invite 9 friends or family members to have a fun night "in" instead of going "out". Watch a movie, have a pj party, work on a projects, play some games, have coffee and dessert~ whatever sounds fun to you! Each friend brings $20 to donate towards Isaac's account~ the idea being you donate the $20 you could have easily spent on a movie and a bite to eat if you would have just gone out for the night. A full party (10 people) would raise a whopping $200.00 Just for having a great night!! Here's the incredible part...
If 150 people hosted a party like this. It would raise 30,000!!! Yes..check the math, I've done so a half a dozen times; its truly incredible to think of what could be...30,000 would almost completely fund Isaac's adoption! All in the name of a great time with family and friends.
If you'd like to plan a "Night in for Isaac" party~ we would be so thrilled! Let me know so that we can reserve a copy of this special artwork for you cherish and always remember the blessing you were to our beloved Isaac! If you would like to donate $100 or more into his Reece's Rainbow account in the month of August be sure to forward a copy of your email receipt to imagesbyjohanna@yahoo.com If you have any questions~ you can also contact the artist, Johanna at this address.

An Invitation to Love.

2011-06-18T20:44:00.000-07:00

In a moment He asked us

"Would you?
Would you open your heart and your home and be willing to share blessings I've given you with another child of my own. All I have given to you, would you trust me if I asked you to share it with a beloved child I have great fondness for.
Here he is.
Feel my affection for him if just for a moment. . .
Do you see how I treasure him?
This child is set a part for me. He was made in my image that I will not allow to be cast away like refuse. This will not be. I have sought to pursue a family for him. You are blessed to be sought by Me.
For he is a blessing who has been despised because of the great and foolish fear of man.
I have not to plead with you, This is an invitation.
This child is a gift. I am inviting you into a blessing. Are you willing?
Will you follow Me?"

What we have said to Him in response and what we are finding in the journey to be true

Yes, Lord. We will follow You. We have room in our hearts and in our home. Because, You, Oh Great and Mighty God, have made room. You have done a miracle in our hearts to prepare us for the time when you would ask us to respond to your 'invitation to love'. We have room and endurance for the journey, because You are our source. Every demand placed on us, is a demand placed on The Holy One of heaven, and You are more than able. We will trust you through the trials knowing your extravagant love.
The only room we may doubt our capacity for, is the room to receive your bountiful blessings. Because they, Oh Great and Mighty God, are pouring in. They are so abundant that our cup continuously runs over and over and we can hardly imagine the miraculous way you will provide for our next need. You are our reason and You are our Lord and we are honored to respond to your most treasured, invitation to love.

Wishing you were here...

2011-06-16T19:25:00.000-07:00

I've been so tired catching up from all of the business of the yard sale and flurry of paperwork. Today I felt so much more rested, I found myself laughing and playing with the kids and realizing I had energy to brainstorm fund raising ideas and make a creative dinner. The kids are outside with Jason playing now and I was just researching a few things on the internet. And then something new happened. My heart started to kind of like, ache.

worry.

miss.

and long for him.

I can't help but wonder what he's doing right now. Half way around the world, is he crying? Is he hurting? Because something doesn't feel right. You know that feeling you get as a parent and so you just go..and check on them. But I can't.

Thank you God for prayer, for it is our life line as parents and especially in this situation because I have no way to reach out to him. But Lord, you can reach out to him and I know you have. You have never forgotten him. And he is yours first, foremost and completely.

And its like time's working backwards. I'm developing a love known only by a mother for a precious child I have never held. I've never rocked him to sleep, wiped his tears or never been able to relish a giggle.

And its starting to hurt. It feels like I'm mourning the loss of those times...and the fact that I wasn't aware of him to begin this process when he was first born. But that was not the plan. And I will trust the One who holds time in His hands.

In the mean time I watch this:

Last Saturday, while we were experiencing our yard sale miracle, this family was experiencing this one.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bk7yd50naoc&feature=player_embedded

Fishes and Loaves

2011-06-13T21:31:00.000-07:00

I'm not really sure how it happened.

But it did.

The most incredible yard sale I've EVER seen

was last seen at my house this last Friday and Saturday!

We raised over 2,600 dollars!!

WHAT?!!! (That's what I kept saying over and over and over!)

We only made the request for donations about a week and a half prior and at first I wasn't sure anything was really going to come in. But then, it began and never really stopped!!

I was on the verge of tears the entire weekend~ the whole thing was surreal. We kept selling and selling but it never really seemed like anything was gone! I don't know how it came together but it was ENORMOUS encompassing 3 yards and driveways. Friends and family members came in shifts continuously, not because we had planned for them to but God they just. did. Without their help, we could have never done it. Jason had food poisoning Thursday and Friday and I developed heat exhaustion Saturday. Our friends and family brought us through, it's as if they were the wings of God carrying us through to experience the most amazing weekend you could've ever imagined. Another beautiful family is taking all of the left over items (which is a TON) and having another garage sale for us this coming weekend. WHO DOES THAT??!! We are so thankful for everything everyone has done. It has been a miracle I will cherish my whole life and one that I can't wait to share with Isaac when he comes home.

Benefit Garage Sale, June 11th.

2011-06-06T13:58:00.000-07:00

Large Multi-Family yard sale to benefit Isaac's adoption: Friday and Saturday June 10th and 11th at 5:30am. If your interested, we invite you to participate by donating items, help setup or just come by to check out the sale!! Here is the craigslist post for this event.
....more info soon about list of items for sale. Hope to see you soon!
Note: We will be able to accept cash, credit and paypal!

Grace and Peace,
Jason

So much to be thankful for

2011-06-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

Many families have rallied around us and offered donations for Saturday's Garage Sale Fundraiser. The generosity of those around me has absolutely ASTOUNDED me this past week. We are so grateful for each person's contribution. We cherish every bit of the support and encouragement you have been to us.I cannot articulate what it feels like to seemingly face the intimidating "mountain" that stands between Isaac and our family with what feels like an army powered by love. I wish so much that he could experience the love that everyone is pouring out for him already. In fact, last week my friend Sharon told me she was praying that somehow he would just know a family who loves him is coming for him. Isn't that beautiful? I have to join in with her. . .

Heavenly Father, I pray the love that has inspired each person to acts of service and sacrifice for Isaac would somehow bless his spirit right this very moment. May You supernaturally allow him to experience our love and Your love, that his heart would be filled with hope, joy, confidence and security. I ask this is the name above names, Jesus.

And to Isaac; We are fighting for you. Praying and thinking of you always until we see this mountain moved. The mountain we face, until at last, we see your face. It will all be worth it, because you, my sweet, are worth it and so. much. more.

Memorial Day

2011-05-30T10:03:00.000-07:00

This memorial day I am reminded of how truly blessed I am. I am so thankful to live in this country with all the opportunities I enjoy every single day. Consequently, I often take these gifts for granted. It does my heart well to remember that we only live in place of freedom because others have fought long and hard to ensure these luxuries protected and cherished. Because of their sacrifice and courage, we are able to worship, pray, and advocate with incredible freedom that others only spend their lives only fighting for and never experiencing. We are truly grateful and desire to live with the mindset that we are "blessed to be a blessing". Today as we celebrate the unique opportunities we have because of our place on the map and page in the book of time, we are honored to respond to God's call remember to those who have been abandoned, oppressed, widowed and orphaned. May we all join in to share the blessing.

There are so many ways, here's some inspiration from our hearts ;)

Happy Memorial Day and God Bless!!

Faith

2011-05-22T20:19:00.000-07:00

We've been praying. We've been fasting. And now we're taking one step on the path in the direction we believe we've been led. We are stepping out in faith.
Not faith that it will be easy. Faith that God is big enough, strong enough and LOVING enough to direct and redirect us if we are earnestly seeking His will. He knows our weaknesses. He knows how dense we can be. "What if I miss it God?" This is the fear that haunts us, holding us back from even trying to follow Him. But God is bigger than us. And more than that
He. Is. Good.